Welcome to the Women in Recovery Forum!

[Vilema]

This forum is an opportunity for us gals to offer each other support, encouragement, accountability and friendship as we strive to become free from our porn addictions.

Though my journey to a P free life is still in its infancy, I am already beginning to see the benefits of abstaining. I'm happier. I'm starting to accept my flawed body (as compared to the air brushed p actresses) and I feel cleaner and freer. I'm sure there will be challenging days ahead but the rewards for fighting this battle are clear and I look forward to pressing on with other women that want to embrace a life free from addiction.

Let's rally together girls and create our own all girl army to battle the beasts that led us to our dependence on P and live a life of freedom!

[nickycole]

Today's my first day and it's kinda hard. I got an overactive imagination so I keep thinking about it. Doesn't help that I'm at home by myself.
My main focus for the next couple of days is emotion control. I've got to stop crying because I know I cant change the past....just hope for a brighter future.

[Vilema]

Welcome Nicky!

I'm so glad you're here. I'm so sorry that you're hurting. The good news is that you've come to the right place. This is a great community full of other hurting people that are looking to be free from P. You'll find lots of encouragement, support, friendship and accountability - the recipe for success in overcoming P.

You're right - being home alone can make resisting temptation a challenge. Do you have to be at home alone right now? Can you go for a walk, visit a museam, take a drive, or some other healthy alternative?

My recommendations for getting control over your PA are the following:
1. Start a recovery journal. This is a great tool for tracking your progress and connecting with other members. I've learned more about myself through journaling on here than I ever thought possible.
2. List your triggers. Each time you find yourself tempted to view P, think about what may have triggered that temptation (home alone is ovbiously one). This will help you to do Step 3.
3. Create a plan for avoiding or minimizing your triggers. This may mean joining a community group, becoming a volunteer (things to get you of the house), installing internet filtering software, etc.

I'm so glad you're here. I look forward to fighting this fight with you sister! Let's keep moving forward to a P free life!

[Vilema]

I've noticed that since I started my quest to be P-free I feel so much girlier and feminine. I can't quite put my finger on why I feel different but I do. I'm gonna give this some more thought because I suspect the "why" I feel girlier has some importance.

Anyone else notice a similar change?

[a moment of change]

I'm so glad I found this thread. I always felt very stigmatized being a young female addicted to P. Like I was even worse somehow because I was the "typical" person who goes through this sort of stuff.

And I do feel more feminine. For me, I think it's because when I'm not in my addicted stage, I feel as if my body, as a woman, is more cherished, and special. Maybe more innocent, so it makes me feel girlier.

[Vilema]

Originally Posted by a moment of change

I'm so glad I found this thread. I always felt very stigmatized being a young female addicted to P. Like I was even worse somehow because I was the "typical" person who goes through this sort of stuff.

And I do feel more feminine. For me, I think it's because when I'm not in my addicted stage, I feel as if my body, as a woman, is more cherished, and special. Maybe more innocent, so it makes me feel girlier.

I'm really glad you found this thread too! I know exactly how you feel. I thought it was really strange that I was addicted to P and a woman.

I also agree that I feel girlier because I feel special. Thank goodness for freedom!

[aurora]

Hello everyone! Another girl checking in! I have been P free for 2 days, not very long but it is progress and I consider it a blessing. I am encouraged just to see how warm and welcoming everyone is here and how everyone has similar stories. I have a journal where I began my written journey and I feel like it's been very helpful! I'm more motivated than ever to continue on this journey and go towards my goal of being P and M free for life.

[aurora]

Originally Posted by a moment of change

I'm so glad I found this thread. I always felt very stigmatized being a young female addicted to P. Like I was even worse somehow because I was the "typical" person who goes through this sort of stuff.

And I do feel more feminine. For me, I think it's because when I'm not in my addicted stage, I feel as if my body, as a woman, is more cherished, and special. Maybe more innocent, so it makes me feel girlier.

I can relate as well. I feel more like MYSELF. Who Aurora is and who comes out at 1:00 am are completely diffrent women. As soon after M is over, I feel like crying, because I feel like I've just changed from one person to another. It's a bizzare feeling, that is for sure. I feel more feminine as well and happier when I am ou of my addict stage. I feel more motivated to do the things I want to do in life and it's a wonderful feeling.

[Vilema]

Welcome Aurora! It is truly amazing how the P adict leads 2 different lives, isn't it? On the surface, I'm a normal, sweet gal and then perculating below is this P obsessed weirdo. I want to encourage you that as you progress through your recovery, you'll learn to forgive yourself for your alter ego and you will also find self acceptance. That's been the biggest thing for me anyway. I'm learning to accept myself inconsistencies and all! That's made my compulsion to view P and M decrease over the months. I hope you find the same true for you as well.

Again. I'm so happy you're here. I look forward to reading your journal and cheering you along as you recover.

[aurora]

Thank you vilema! I am glad to be here as well! It's like a jeckle and hyde senario, that is what it always reminds me of. I am always looking forward to reporting back here with another day to add to my sobrity and I find that is very helpful as well. Thank you for the encouragement!