New to TtF.org - grateful believer in recovery

[Evidence_of_Grace]

Hello,

I was just introduced to this forum and, from what I hear, it sounds spectacular! A brief overview of me and my struggles.

I am 27. I am a Christian. I currently struggle with pornography and the desire to have pre-marital sex. I have been struggling with pornography since I was introduced to it in grade-school and I lost my virginity when I was 15/16.

I can't pin a specific time frame on how long it has been since I have been recovering. I am sure that there was a point when I knew that what I was involving myself in was wrong but I continued to suffer inadequacies in my decision making and kept choosing to indulge in pornography and sex.

I am unmarried and my last serious relationship was dissolved, approx 1 year ago, when I sought sex from other sources. I consider this a large wake-up call but despite all of the heart break that I experienced, and gave to this young woman, over the next 6 months I found another sex partner. We only met a handful of times and I have not visited her for about 5 months though I have, in times of temptation, tried to contact her.

At present, I am in a healthy relationship with a lovely young, Christian, woman. I have been involving myself in accountiblity groups, such as Celebrate Recovery, and trying to keep in touch with some accountibility partners in the hopes that I can continue in what I know to die to my self and its lusts. The temptations still come, relatively frequently, and pornography is a large temptation because of its overabundance and ease of acquisition.

I aim to post regularly in a recovery journal and I look forward to working through this struggle with you all.

in Christ,
M - Evidence of Grace

[chewy]

So glad to see you here M!! This has been such a great outlet for me and I know it will be for you as well. We know what we need to do and we know we can't do it by ourselves!! Looking foward to your journal posts as this has helped me tremendously!