Defeating the Devil: My Season against Satin

[NOSAJ]

recently seriously started to try and stop my PA and im glad i found this forum for support...im 21 years old and have had a PA for atleast 6 years prolly closer to 8 anyways starting june 1 i had checked off with an X each day that i had went thru without viewing P and no X for days that i had viewed P...well yesterday i gave in to temptation and felt so horrible afterwords (as always) after alot of thought i went to look at my calender and realized of the then 23 days in june i had an X marked on 18 of those days and had just went 8 days in a row with Xs before i blew it on monday...for whatever reason (holy spirit maybe?) being a huge sports fan i thought that this must be what any sports team feels like after a loss when they look back at there record and say "you know what? we may have lost tonight but our records still pretty good"...so i went back on my calender and changed all the Xs to Ws and all the blanks to Ls...18-5 not too bad...so i figured heres my game plan= every sports team needs a schedule and satin plays games everyday so everyday is game day...i won today and it makes me feel so good to put a W for the 24th...ive read a few threads and i know some of you are amazing 6 months ect ect but everydays a battle and i plan to win the war one day at a time so for me this is my way of keeping score...how many sports team ever go undeafeated throughout the course of a season? not many at all...so i feel that this is a legit way for me and maybe some of you other sports fans to bring on the compititon...i would hope maybe a few of you will join me and post your records along with mine because i believe that compition brings out the best in a man and not to be competitive because this truly is a battle with you and yourself but if i see one of you is posting an unbelievable record im going to try to match and maybe best that and that will bring out the best in both of us...sorry for the long letter and poor writing i am a much better writer but posting from my mobile (as i got rid of my computer for PA resons) thanks for bearing with me if you got this far and i hope that this "season" style might help some of you and i hope that you will share your season records along with mine on this thread so that i may become a fan of yours and vice versa...im 19-5 and proud of it

[FoolishMind]

Hi Nosaj,

That is really inspirational and fresh way at looking at things. I have spend several months on this site, and not thought of that. Really nice spin, and I believe all sports fan will really like that.

On the flip side, this can give you an excuse to falter, say you have had a season of 20 wins on the trot, and one day your weak you could rationalize to yourself that 20-1 aint too bad! So like all good sports teams, while offense is extremely important, im sure you will appreciate defence is equal. If a defence is weak, they need to learn why, and how they can improve etc etc.

I was shocked to read that you have rid of your computer! That is huge, did you really just make that decision because of P? so am i right in assuming your only internet connection is through a mobile device or PDA?

Anyway, Welcome to the site, and i think youve a great attitude, and with that success is only around the corner.

FM

[NOSAJ]

Thanks For The Response And I Believe It Was Your Diary I Was Refering To When I Said Some Have Gone 6 Months That Is Just Awesome...no The Reason Wasnt Just Pa For Getting Rid Of My Computer I Had Put It Up For Colatoral And When Push Came To Shove And It Was Time To Buy It Back I Said Piss On It The Only Reason I Use It Is For P Anyway...my New Obstacle Now When It Comes To P Is My Playstation 3 As It Comes With An Internet Browser But I Have That Locked So If I Falter I Have To Reset The Whole System Which Takes About 2 Hrs And Also Forces U To Reset Your Psn Id For Gaming Which Is A Huge Deterent...anyways Thanks Again For The Response And Im Well On My Way Towards Another Win Today !!!! Thank God

[Scooter]

Hi backwards Jason,
Really cool to see a fresh spin... appealing to the competive nature of men is a great way of motivating them. Its great that you see the losses as insignificant when comparing them to the number of wins! Good on you for the positive changes you are making re: the computer and playstation. Good luck with this.

[NOSAJ]

Thanks Scooter!! Also If I Did The Math Right Fm Is Sitting Somewhere Around 180-0 In His Season So Far...talk About Defeating The Devil!!! If 180-0 Doesnt Motivate Me Nothing Will But Fortunetly It Does Fm Im Not To Far Behind Only 160 Or So Victories To Go

[FoolishMind]

Again I applaud your effort, There are many here that are reluctant to apply an internet filter, so there will always be an open door for them, should they be weak. I recently purchased a Wii, and I requested my wife to put a pin on the intenet browser aswell.

Simply awesome, again, just love your attitude. And thanks for mentioning my score! The Undefeated! he he

FM

[NOSAJ]

Just Reading E.v. Hill And He Is Speaking Of Struggle...

The Honest Confession Of Everyone Of Us Would Be That Even Born Again Sanctified And Filled With The Holy Ghost Life Is Still A Struggle...i See No Description In Scripture Of A Christian Journey In Which There Is No Warfare. I Am Unable To Find In Scripture A Calm Cross Less Life...all Of The Lives That Have Been Crowned With The Benediction Of God Are Lives That Haveknown What It Means To Struggle...i Have Not Known A Period In My Own Life When I Have Not Had Troubles And Trials...why Is It A Struggle? Where Does The Struggle Come From? Well First Of All Because The Fruits Of Our Sins Must Be Manifested In This World...we Are All Decendents Of One Who Had Sin In His Viens We Are All Decendents Of Adam And Adam Did Not Have A Slight Stumble Nor A Small Casualty...he Had A Fatal Fall. Sin Entered The Bloodstream Of Adam And Therefore It Entered The Entire World And Everything In It...there Are Those Who Claim That Man Did Not Fall...the Humanists Suggest All Men Are Born Good...but The Cold Facts Are We Are Born In Sin...evil Is All Around And Its The Stuff That Adam Left In Me That Makes Me Break Every Command God Ever Gave Me And Though Sin Was Forgivin On The Cross- And It Was Forgiven- The Truth Of Sin As Manifested In The Condemned Must Manifest Itself In The World...my Forgveness Gives Me A Perfect Position But I Still Have A Terminal Condition...my Position Is Im Saved But My Condition Is Im Struggling. Im Trying. In My Flesh Theres A War Going On. Scripture Is Clear On This Point- Romans 3:23 "for All Have Sinned And Come Short Of The Glory Of God" I Have Sinned And Im Not Proud Of It...im Fallen I Wish It Wernt So...i Have Willfully And Deliberately And Knowingly Done Wrong In The Sight Of God...the Pay Off Of Sin Is A Strugge. The Good News Is Tho That The Lord Will Call You...the Lord Said "i Did Not Call You In The Light Of Your Righteousness, But I Called You In Spite Of Your Sins"...there Is A Struggle That Will Not Quit For Believers- The Process Of Being Saved...being Sanctified, Being Perfected...that Process Is Painful...we Are Filthy Rags Being Washed In The Blood Of The Lamb...we Are Dirty Folk Being Cleaned Up...the Process Is Called Sanctification...a Sinner Is A Lump Of Clay On The Shelf With Nobody Doing Anything To It. A Sinner Is A Lump Of Clay That Nobody Bought...a Christian Is A Lump Of Clay Off Of The Shelf And In The Hands Of The Master...the Master Takes That Clay And Arranges It Twists It And Molds It Pounds It Breaks It Up And Puts It Into The Fire? What Does That Sound Like My Friend? Struggle Struggle Struggle...it Hurts You This Refining Process But Thats All Right Because In The End We Become More Than A Lump Of Clay In The Masters Hands....in The Book Of Job We Read Of A Rightous Mans Struggles...his Friends Say To Him "job Why Are You Struggling? Whats Wrong With You Job?" And Job Says To Them" I Dont Know...i Lost My Children I Lost My Wealth I Lost Everything I Had But I Know Theres Something Going On Here...for He Knows My Heart And He Knows Ive Tried And Tried And Tried And In All Of The Trying Im Still Struggling" Job Said " Here It Is. Im Under Inspection. Im Under Construction. I Dont Look Good Because Hes Still Working On Me. I Dont Look Good Because Hes Not Through, But After Awhile When Hes Through With Me Ill Shine Like Never Before. So Dont Be So Hard On Me, For Hes Not Through With Me Yet."

Just Thought Id Share As This Really Touched My Heart And Hopefully Yours In Regards To The Struggles Of Pa

[futurehope]

I like your sports metaphor, too. It lets you give yourself credit, while remembering your failures too. It's like a good balance between being too hard on yourself and being too soft on yourself. And when the days get quite long you could do it with weeks, or even months.

[Scooter]

Nosaj, I can't help but notice your mobile device is capitilising the start of each word... do you know if you have any way of turning this off as I"m just finding your posts a little difficult to read in the current format?

[HalfPint]

wow nosaj, you're really taking off and "grabbing the bull by the horns" Its refreshing. Welcome to the forums, I'm bob, one of the moderators. I would like to quickly redirect your attention to the forum rules More about ThroughTheFlame.org and after that detour I would like to say that I appreciate your attitude and your willingness and strength in fighting this problem. Too many times we let it make us depressed and it brings us down, and its hard to get out of that kind of rutt, but we need to anyways.

but yea, I cant say I've seen a journal take off this quickly, at least not in a long time. Its good to see your energy, its refreshing, please keep it up, its an encouragement to me and I'm sure others around here. keep looking forward and stay strong.