Iblivin4givinru's Recovery Journal - Page 2

jimmy78 · 06-06-2008, 02:41 AM

Nice job, Wendell! Keep strong, and like halfpint says, keep goin forward no matter what. Five days is a great accomplishment!

Jimmy

iblivin4givinru · **happend again upset now -** 06-09-2008, 10:47 PM

after being clean for about 6 days i had a relapse and not just one i had 2 i have had trouble struggling to get rid of the temptation but i dont know what else to do i have tried everything

please give some advice thanks

wendell

PAAnon · 06-09-2008, 11:08 PM

The key for me was prayer, and then taking actions away from the altar of P when the temptations/obessessions came up.

When I had enough pain, and then more from my addictive/obssessive behavior, that is when I was motivated to take action.

If you are interested in trying a 12-step approach to the problem, please PM me and we can see what we can do.

PAAnon

TakingMeBack · 06-12-2008, 09:43 PM

Start a new life today. With each day that you live up to your ideals you become more of who you were put on this earth to be. Namaste.

futurehope · 01:12 AM

Good for you, for realizing at a young age you have gone down the wrong path, and trying to get back to the right one. The longer you leave it, the harder it is, so now's a great time to let that habit go. I like that idea someone mentioned of thinking about what sort of person you want to be. I'm 35, and I can think...when I'm 45, do I want to be sitting around surfing for porn, feeling dissastified, anxious and unsettled, making myself miserable and those around me too? Or do I imagine a different future for myself? Maybe for you it is how you will be when you are 25 or 30....and realizing you can't have it both ways is good. Like you can't act one way and expect to be different from that in the future.
Thinking long-term is good...but of course, you can only ever realize it right now!

Greenie · 06-15-2008, 08:15 AM

Welcome iblivin4givinru,
I am new here as well and have only been P free for 8 days, but at least now, what helps me is a structured day and the consistent contact of support(This site for one). I know what I am doing for most of the day and usually have a few items on a to do list waiting for me.

When I feel and urge coming on, lately, I have been able to pick it a part and ask myself..why??

I wish I could have done this at your age.

Good work on the past couple of days...you sound better for them and you'll be better yet.

easilytempted · **Now is the Time -** 06-16-2008, 06:08 PM

I just wanted to drop a line of encouragement and let you know that this is a great place to start the recovery process if you utilize the resources that have been made available to us. Good Luck with your Journey.

iblivin4givinru · **Havent posted in a while, let me tell ya some stuff -** 06-22-2008, 09:22 PM

well every since i joined this site i have been on and off of looking at porn. to me it is pleasurable but everytime i look at it even more and more it gets more and more discusting and very disturbing to me. i mean how can people just let themselves be filmed having sex that is just wrong and very nasty. Many times i have been tempted and many times i have actually fallen to temptation. I love this site because people support others decissions that they make and they dont judge them for messing up.

i have messed up but now i am getting rid of the habit. i am starting to control my emotional and physical feelings that i get. i dont look at girls the same way of getting into their pants anymore i look at them like human beings and i notice that they want to be loved to like everyone does. i love that i am slowly pulling away from this addiction and i am finally becoming more happy and more suttle with my life. People have been helping me through this and helping me break this habbit. I have talked to many people and i have gotten GREAT advice that has helped me steer my life in the right direction instead of the wrong one. but the biggest person that has helped me through this is GOD himself he has kept me and given me the abbility to control what i am doing.

I just have to say thanks to everyone who has given me great advice.

Thanks and

God Bless, Wendell

AJP2008 · 06-23-2008, 12:16 AM

danger is the key, when you feel your in a danger situation and you are triggered to find P, then simply MB, and quickly. or go out to the pub, even if your tetotal, be with others, not yourself, engage in something else. As another member says, use the buddhist technique, return to the real world situation, where you are what you are doing. fly from the danger, only fight if your strong enough. After time you will be, but there is no shame in flying away, there is shame in doing P. Hope it helps.

Sheemie · 06-23-2008, 04:06 AM

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Originally Posted by AJP2008

fly from the danger, only fight if your strong enough. After time you will be, but there is no shame in flying away, there is shame in doing P. Hope it helps.

wow...that certainly helps me. I never really thought of it in quite that way. That's something for me to think about. "Fight vs flight": which an I doing, and which should I be doing.... That's awesome. Thanks