Fell but getting back up.

[Persistence]

Hey Best Shot, I just wanted to let you know that reading your journal really helped me through a tough day today. Thanks for your lead. I am also at around two weeks, and was feeling alot of urges today.

[BestShot]

Glad it helped. I believe I am on day 16 now. I feel fine today. It's incredible how some days you feel absolutely fine and others you feel like there is no way you can make it with out "P"! Crazy Train my brother!!!

[BestShot]

I think I am on day 16. SuperBowl Sunday! Actually, I am not that excited about the SB this year. My team isn't in it and I really don't care for either team that is.

Things are going well. I was commenting on how incredible it is when some days you feel like you absolutely, positively need to look at "P" and other days you are absolutely, positively fine with out it. Amazing. So, I am grateful because I know today will be an easy day. At least it is so far. Tomorrow begins a another busy week. I am hoping that it will be easy to stay away from the "p". I love those days!

May you all have an excellent Sunday!

Yours in the bond of healing,

BestShot

[fightingdefeat]

Yeah man, the "easy" days are so wonderful. They are the "oasis" in the desert for us... But they also signify something greater than just the niceness in not having to struggle as hard... they show us the potential. A glimpse into a time when it will be far more normal for us to not struggle than to struggle. Although we'll always face temptations, they'll eventually become less powerful as we become stronger and more disciplined. Best of luck in this next week! Stay strong! :)

[BestShot]

This is for my Buddy who's inbox is full and cannot receive a message from me today. I hope you get this pal! Empty your box :)

Hey Buddy,

I do not have a lot of time this morning but I read your message to me yesterday and I wanted to respond.

First off, I am so glad you told me the truth. Had you lied I never would have known but you would have and that would have created distance between us and our friendship would have been strained. So, thank you for being so honest. I pledge to always do the same.

You and I both know that failure in this struggle is a reality, however, I do know that we can beat this. I am on day 17 and I really hope that I will never fail again but I cannot be sure. I can only be as strong as I can be each day. One thing that really does seem to help is coming here each day and writing in a journal. Even if it is only a couple of sentences. It does something to us. It seems to add to the accountability factor. Gives us a little bit of an edge against the dark side. You know?

So, my advice to you is to keep writing in your journal. I will read it!

Today is tough for me. I wanted like hell to come in here and look at some "p" this morning. Even after listening to some very inspiring sermons on my ipod. The stuff is just gripping me right now and I wish it would stop. Luckily I am writing to you and that is saving me for the moment :)

I have to get out and vacuum our tennis courts but I will be back later and check on you and add to my journal. Don't view yourself as some kind of psycho. You are a good man. Start your journal today brother!

I am here for you.

Yours in the bond of healing and our Lord,

[BestShot]

Day 17.

It has been a HARD day. I have felt like using "p" whenever I have spare time. Luckily I am here writing in my journal and that is preventing me from getting into trouble. One of my triggers is definitely stress. There is plenty of that these days with my work and our new puppy at home whom I LOVE but he is a lot of work!

Not sure what else to say except that it is depressing to have this addiction. It is sad and frustrating. I don't feel helpless or hopeless, I just wish I didn't have to deal with it. Anyway, I feel confident that I will get through today "p" free. I am looking forward to an easier day in the NEAR future!

Thanks to all who encourage and support!

Yours in the bond of healing,

BestShot

[BestShot]

Day 19.

UUUUGH! Had some really strong urges about 5 minutes ago. I read about somebody else who was struggling recently and it inspired me to hang on for another moment. I quickly came to this site and am now writing to literally save myself from entering the world of "P". Man, I wish I wasn't like this. It sucks!

I know in about an hour I will look back on the past few minutes and realize that I made the right decision. It's incredible how "stupid" we can be when we are being called to "P". You don't think rationally. You simply run on impulse. Ridiculous. I will be glad when these urges begin to settle down.

I hope you all have a great day!

Yours in the bond of healing,

BestShot

PS. Sick of It, your message box is full! I cannot send you stuff!

[BestShot]

Day 19 part 2.

Still battling and I have been good! I will be busy from about now til I go home so I know that I will make it to day 20 :) Must have COFFEE!

Have a great day everybody!

Yours in the bond of healing,

BestShot

PS ROBERT! Empty your inbox :)

[BestShot]

Day 20.

I am not happy with myself. Although I am still "P" free I was so tempted this morning it wasn't even funny. Again, I was close to going where I shouldn't go. SOMEHOW I resisted but just barely. I need to get away from my computer now so I don't stumble. I will write more later. This has been tough!

Stay strong!

Yours in the bond of healing,

BestShot

[fightingdefeat]

Hey man... Yeah I know the feeling of being "mad" at temptation, but my encouragement is don't get too upset at the temptation itself, but really focus on the fact that you stayed strong and did not give in. Even if you entertained the idea of giving in, you didn't actually act out! But seriously, congrats on avoiding the temptations that you faced. Use those experiences to fuel your resolve and understanding of this. ;) Best of luck staying strong for the rest of the day!