Another Journal entry;Timothy

[Timothy]

Hello everyone. I appreciate all of you who have made me feel
welcomed and safe here at TTF.
well today is good I figured I am not in my P addiction since October 1st 2011
thats three months now or four. well its a good long time for me. Thanks God.
I am thank ful to Be in a recovery program and also very much thankful to have'
found TTF. Do I have impure thoughts ?, YES do I act on them? No. do I catch myself
looking at a trigger Item or still have verbal word triggers,? Yes. do I act out because of it?
No. Did I set aDate to start being Free of PA? Yes . do I want to turn back and relive past mistakes ? NO,
Am I perfect, Heck No!

I am thankful for those who have sought help by coming here to TTf and sharing. IT is a big step to admit that P and all other addictions related to it have made your life unmanageable. I know. I first admitted my life had become unmanagaeable 2 years ago this past November (2011) will be 3 years this year.. Recently I have had some more
stressful situations but remain resolved not to give in to my addictions. One of Our Friends' sons was arrested for
stealing from two elerly women to support his drug habit. This stressed me out. He has not admitted that his life is unmanageable. He has attended recovery a few sparse times on the ruse that he was theer to support his friend not there for himself.
I did the same thing using my wife but realized i needed to be there also. well that is it for tonight. TIM

[comet]

Hi, Timothy.
You said you have never acted out since you joint TTF, what a wonderful achievement, I acted out once. You said; “Yes. do I act out because of it?
No. Did I set aDate to start being Free of PA? Yes . do I want to turn back and relive past mistakes ? NO,
Am I perfect, Heck No! “
After reading your post I have learned that we don’t have to be perfect to recovery, just keep going on, don’t let past mistake halted me.
You said using P is just like using drugs, we steal others for our addiction. I totally agree. Every p addict should learn that!
Good luck!

[JenMac]

Hey Tim!
Congratulations on the 3 months! :)
We are glad you have found TTF too Tim! Keep coming back! There is much to learn here!
All the best!
Jenn