I will quit

[AJP2008]

Day three and all ok. New laptop is great and found myself not missing the old one. Working hard this time on my danger times, when I am vulnerable to attack.

[AJP2008]

Found a stash app on iTunes for my iPad, all became so secretive again, but I did feel weak and went on. I knew what I was doing but did it anyway. Just need to get a good start and make it past a couple of weeks. I managed to do six weeks from the beginning of 2012 and now I don't know how I did. The lesson I learnt is that when I feel vulnerable, I should just go find my wife and stay with her until I don't

[IN NEED OF HELP]

Found a stash app on iTunes for my iPad, all became so secretive again, but I did feel weak and went on. I knew what I was doing but did it anyway. Just need to get a good start and make it past a couple of weeks. I managed to do six weeks from the beginning of 2012 and now I don't know how I did. The lesson I learnt is that when I feel vulnerable, I should just go find my wife and stay with her until I don't

Hey my friend, sorry to hear you are back at square one again

So the thing is, just jump right back into recovery. we can do this, but the thing is, we need to find a solution when we are vulnerable/or tempted. and I think you having the thought of finding your wife, and staying with her, would be the right choice. Just always find a way to get out of the situation when it comes up. the more we dwell on the temptations, the bigger chance there is, in giving into them

Stay strong, and on guard

Gerald

[AJP2008]

And back again at square one, after a weekend bender I'm trying again. I keep breaking promises to my wife to stop so i will try and keep trying to stop. It's a matter of sheer will.

[Letting Go]

… The lesson I learnt is that when I feel vulnerable, I should just go find my wife and stay with her until I don't

This always worked best for me when I was sorely tempted. The big problem is when you wife is not available, or cannot be called. I don’t know what would work for you, but I developed a series of obsessions that would crowd out s*xual thoughts out of my mind. Besides work, and grad school, I started a number of hobbies that I could do without the aid of a computer, indoors and in bad weather. It was also crucial that I could do these things a little bit at a time 15 minutes here, 15 minutes there. This was important for me to soak up spare bits of time that I might otherwise use to obsess about P. For me I used exercise, playing a musical instrument, and picked up a manly craft hobby (I build architectural models), to prevent me from thinking about P.

Good Luck!


Letting Go

[IN NEED OF HELP]

sorry to hear you are back to square one. The main thing is to always get right back into recovery. As suggested, find something to fill your time, that will keep you away from the computer. this recovery is not easy, but it can be done, if you work recovery 100%

Just stay strong, and always be on guard

Gerald