Day 5

[f4shizzle123]

I have failed:'(((((((((((((((((((((((((((

This addiction is ruining everything

[IN NEED OF HELP]

I have failed:'(((((((((((((((((((((((((((

This addiction is ruining everything

How have you failed my friend?? A person only fails if they give up on there recovery, and I am pretty sure that your not going to let that happen.
So whatever happened, right now is just the time, to take a good look at what happened, and how it happened, and see if you can learn from it. Getting this addiction out of our lives, requires a lot of dedication, and hard work. also we need to make many changes in our life now, so we can become a new person.

So see what you need to do, to be able to beat this addiction. make whatever changes that need to be made now, and get a firm grip on your recovery.

Keep coming back to share with us, what you are going through

This is just a suggestion, but it may be a little easier to keep track of your journey, if you were to put it in one journal, and just post in it.

[Rockinastorm]

Hi F4shizzle,
I think it would benefit you to start writing your journal in the same thread. Just go to the bottom and hit the "reply to thread" button. This way, you can collect your journal in one place, and so each time you post in it you can see what you have wrote before and see any advice another member has left for you. You could copy your other entries back into the original journal you started.

I am sorry to hear that you have failed. I hope that you take some time to try and reflect on this.. The best thing for me to do when I fall is come on to TTF and just try to find my footing again... Thats not to say that I always do that.. but I know that's something for me to work on.

Also, You can download the K9 webfilter for free, you can google it, and ask your dad or girlfriend or someone else to set up the password. I know just HAVING a filter is a big deterrent and this one works really darn well!

So good luck to you, don't beat yourself up too much and keep on trying.