Digby's Deliberations...

[Digby_UK]

I am here because I need to change, both my habits and attitudes.

I have always been a user, in varying forms, until becoming connected to the interweb.
I acknowledge many of the traits mentioned - hiding, denying, late nights, browser history deletion, looking for more and more interesting stuff.

On the first of April - 26 day ago - I stopped looking.

Yesterday, I found a very old note file, with a link. A link name that had nothing to do with P. OR so I thought.
I fell from the path.

25 straight days without looking, or even missing it.
I rediscovered games, reading articles.
I even had time for my wife.

As it was so easy to fall, the "oh soddit I've seen it now lets look for some more"

I am ashamed at my lack of discipline.
I will try again.

So I am throwing my lot in with the rest of you. From today, from now, I start being a recovering PA. Just need to do it a little longer. And If I fall, pick myself up again, start walking. And keep the good company of those who also walk that road.

Digby.

[FoolishMind]

A warm welcome Digby, and sorry about your recent fall. Do not be ashamed about the lack of discipline, as after years and years of looking at P that is what you are used to, that is how you brain is currently programmed in effect. The initial steps are very much about taking on as much knowledge as you can, planning your strategies in what to do in certain tempting situations.

But continually gaining knowledge, keeping why P is simply not right in the forefront of your mind, it will begin to slow your thoughts down before you try to act out.

Focus my friend, and you will acheive your goals

FM

[HopeandDespair]

Welcome Digby! I can relate to the mindset that once I slip down the hill a little, then I may as well go forth with the full on avalanche! Sounds like your in the right place. . . hope you post regularly, as I look forward to following your journey! Glad your here!

[Digby_UK]

Sounds daft, but having a long list of chores from the wife, is a welcome distraction.

And it may put her in a good mood when she comes home...Now for the laundry....

[IN NEED OF HELP]

Sounds daft, but having a long list of chores from the wife, is a welcome distraction.

And it may put her in a good mood when she comes home...Now for the laundry....

Welcome Digby_UK

If that list of chores, will keep you away from your addiction, then do all that you can. with this addiction, the main thing that we can do, to keep us from falling into the trap again, is to keep ourselves busy.

You said that you are ashamed by your lack of discipline, but I need to agree with what foolish mind said. your brain is not used to not having P in it, so it is going to take some time, to get yourself to change your ways of thinking.

Never get down on yourself in the beginning of your recovery, for giving in, and going to P. no one can beat this thing, until they have a good plan in front of them. if you don't have a good plan, one that works real good, then right now is the time to put one together.

I am just glad that you picked yourself up, and got right back into your recovery. For 25 days you had a taste of freedom from this addiction, just think about how good it is going to feel when you have 40 days, 60 days, 1 year. After 30 years of this addiction, I have 5 months clean, and it is the best feeling I have had in over 30 years

Learn all you can now about this addiction, and see how other where able to free themselves from it. there are so many good stories here, that will help you get through the tough parts of this addiction. You have a good attitude about wanting this out of your life for good, so there should be no reason as to why you cant be free from this for the rest of your life

I wish you the best in your recovery my friend. there are so many here that are rooting for you, and who are willing to help you the best that they can

I will check in on you, to see how you are doing. And when you are finished with your chores, I can sure use a little help with mine, so maybe you can come and do mine to?