Daniel2210's Journal

[Daniel2210]

I have an addiction, and it's time to end it. P has done nothing to me, other than making me feel depressed and worthless. The longest amount of time I went without P was 2 and a half months. I learned to never let your guard down that day. So, here's my first entry:

Day 1 without P:

I didn't have much temptation today. I decided to learn a piece on the piano from one of my favorite video games, so far it's sounding pretty good. Hopefully the rest of the day goes well. :)

[IN NEED OF HELP]

Wow that was fast, I just replied to your first post in the new members area.
I am glad to see that you started this journal, so now you are on your way to a life that will be free from this addiction.

Just do all that you can, to stay with your program, and work it.

One day free already, this is a good start my friendbnana_dancebnana_dance

[Daniel2210]

Haha, yeah, I'm known to be a fast typer. :P

It feels great starting a journal. I can already taste the freedom. :D But I'm not going to let my guard down like I did last time.

[IN NEED OF HELP]

Haha, yeah, I'm known to be a fast typer. :P

It feels great starting a journal. I can already taste the freedom. :D But I'm not going to let my guard down like I did last time.

That my friend, is one thing that WE can not do. the minute that we let our guard down for just a second, this beast is there ready to get to us. There is NO getting comfortable with this addiction

[Daniel2210]

Thanks for the tip. It's kind of depressing when you think about how this addiction will be with you forever, but life isn't easy.

Day 2 morning:

Yay, I've been free from P for 2 days! I'm going somewhere this afternoon and I won't be back until tomorrow night. The good thing is I can't give in to P when I'm there because there's no computers. :)

[Daniel2210]

Day 3:

Just got back about an hour ago. I had a few temptations, but I resisted them. The temptations have been getting stronger and stronger every time they come by, so something tells me tommorow's going to be a hard day. Everytime I felt tempted, I took time to take a deep breath and say a quick prayer. That's been helping a lot.

[Daniel2210]

I slipped the first day the site was down, so I'm on day 4... So,

Day 4:

The past few days have been very simple, for some reason. I had some temptations this morning, but I was able to make it pass them.

[Daniel2210]

Day 5:

I'm currently facing some pretty rough temptations. I'm doing whatever I can to prevent them, but I'm getting weaker and weaker every minute. Pray for me, guys. :(

[Daniel2210]

Day 5 part 2:

I've been fighting the temptations since my last post. I feel like I'm going to burst any minute and that I should just get it over with, but I know it's just a temptation. I don't know what do do right now. :(

[JenMac]

Hey Daniel!
Not sure I am the one to be answering you here but I just wanted to chime in with some encouragement here!!
Daniel, what is your plan? Have you devised one yet? If so, what have you planned to help you ride out the temptations?
If not, get busy! Change locations, get out of the house, call a friend.
Daniel, in the beginning you need to change your habits. Prepare yourself for times when you feel weak. Get off the computer. Put a filter on. Come here, as you did, and post your thoughts and feelings!
I give you credit for being here Daniel. That is your first step and now you need to set yourself on the right path by getting that plan of action in place. But right now you just need to work your way through this. Preparing your plan should happen when you are feeling stronger and less tempted.
You wouldn't be here if you didn't realize that you have a problem. You are worth the effort that this is going to take to overcome! Your self worth and confidence are worth fighting for!
It can be done Daniel!!
I am wishing you all the best in your recovery! Keep fighting the fight!
Jenn