first journal

[tntang]

hi everyone glad to it bac up doing good here hope everyone else is as well

[JenMac]

Hey tn!
Welcome back!! Glad to hear you are doing well! Seemed like we were gone forever but really it was a quick 5 days!!
Now just have to figure it all out!!
Jenn

[tntang]

well i am bac being i work on computers was my downfall no mb but did view p did the same thing it always does took from my time my relationship my good feelings and the garden is not planted there is no reward in viewing p it only takes from what life has to offer i am not guilt ridden and am still in recovery i dont think i can work on computers most all i get to fix have p on them this is what i do for a living i have never been able to punch a clock i feel i let jenn down she so wants us all to b p free things were going really well and i let my guard down no one to blame but me i had even lost track of the days i was p free but i know now it is 4 its a start i did not learn to ride a bike in 1 try but i didnt have to try 1000 times to learn to ride it lol best wishes to everyone the new site is great

[IN NEED OF HELP]

well i am bac being i work on computers was my downfall no mb but did view p did the same thing it always does took from my time my relationship my good feelings and the garden is not planted there is no reward in viewing p it only takes from what life has to offer i am not guilt ridden and am still in recovery i dont think i can work on computers most all i get to fix have p on them this is what i do for a living i have never been able to punch a clock i feel i let jenn down she so wants us all to b p free things were going really well and i let my guard down no one to blame but me i had even lost track of the days i was p free but i know now it is 4 its a start i did not learn to ride a bike in 1 try but i didnt have to try 1000 times to learn to ride it lol best wishes to everyone the new site is great

Hey tntang

I just wanted to stop by your journal, and let you know that you are missed here. you have not been back on since you posted this in your journal. I am hopeing that you still get email notification, letting you know that someone replied to your journal.

We are hoping that you are ok, and would love to have you back with us, to get help. your words have always been very encouraging to us here, and we miss your encouragement As for you feeling that you let Jen down, don't feel this way. you have not let anyone down here my friend. We are all fellow addicts here, and we do each other, to get through this addiction.

So I am asking you, that if you do read this, can you Please find it in your heart, too come back here so we can help you, and you can help us?

You are missed my friend

[Disillusioned]

Hi tntang,
I was in the chat room with JenMac when you came in a while back. Only time I have tried using the chat room. I've never been in one before. I did wish you well on your recovery, and I am hoping you are seeing some change in your life and that you now have hope. It's a sad place to be, here at ttf. So many other things I could be doing. I am so hurt and disappointed by my PA that I need the support and need a place to vent.
Want to say welcome, although it feels like I am fairly new also. Hope your computer skills are a lot better than mine, as I don't get around as much as I like with my skills being limited. I have read so many things that touched my heart here. I have seen so many folks struggling with the same things I am. I know you will find that too, if you hang on.
Take a look at some of the threads others have started, and write a response. See what kind of feedback you get. You will end up learning and knowing how other people are coping and you can adapt what they use to your own recovery. There is also a way to get a personal sponser to work with you, if you go back to home page, you will see that option.
Above all, don't quit. Life is too short to give up time to this P thing. Keep trying, keep posting, keeping looking up and you will find you are getting stronger all the time. Things that used to send you rushing back to the P, won't have the same affect. You can be free, and you can begin to be the man you are able to be, the best tntang possible.
I am an so. I am disillusioned.

[tntang]

was lost but am found again have not made it through the flame yet everything was going good then the big lie came

oh one time wont hurt well one time did hurt as it always does now i am back and starting over again and will for as long as it takes going to read some other posts

[tntang]

found my old post from 3 months ago my how time flys when your deep in addiction try try again til i get it right hi to everyone

[JenMac]

Welcome back tn!
Sorry you lost your way but glad you have found us again!
Keep coming back!
All the best!
Jenn

[Disillusioned]

Hey Tntang,
The one and only time I ventured into a chat room, you came while I was there, and I hurried away, cause you were going to go if I didn't. I am sorry to hear that you relapsed, but there are still a whole lot of people here that know about that. You are among good people and I am hoping they can help you find your way and become the better man that you know exists within.
Good luck.
disillusioned

[tntang]

thank u jenn still sharing the luv i c thats a great thing