Time to step up

[johnnyr]

Hello Everyone,

I have been looking at P for about 6 years now and I need help. I discovered this site recently but tried to convince myself that I was ok without it. I now realize that I cannot fight this battle alone. I am a Christian and this is my secret sin that I do not tell anyone but am thankful for a place like this where I can trust people.

I am a single college student and am seeing the negative affects of P. When I have a lot on my plate or am bored or have an urge I usually resort to P. I try to fight it and occasionally I defeat it but that is not the norm. I am slipping further into it and want/need to get out. I am surrounded by people who tell me it is ok and natural but I know in my heart it is not.

Thank you guys here for this support. Any advice or words of wisdom would be appreciated. This is day 1.

[HopeandDespair]

Thanks for sharing your experience. I am very new at this sight as well. I'm not a Christian and have long been of the camp that wanted to believe that P and MB are no big deal and are normal for any 24 year old with hormones. However, while I believe that sex is good and God given, I have never felt good about watching P and MB. However, I've been addicted to it for about 8 years now. I, too, have tried fighting it alone and have never made any progress. I'm currently on day 6, and am going through all kinds of panic and anxiety but I'm trying to hang on.

Welcome to the board. . . keep posting I look forward to following your journey!