I will be a victory...

[aj1976]

I will be a victory… journal entry 2. Well here I am again, it’s been awhile since my first entry. As we all know porn can destroy relationships it almost ruined mine more than once but I’m very lucky to have a woman who stands by me and loves me very much. I’ve been to therapy for my addiction and it did seem to help for awhile things were going great with myself and my girlfriend, but later on down the road I had a relapse and then several more, I told my girlfriend what happened and she was very upset and hurt, and I felt very bad for what I had done and very low, I didn’t know what to do, I wasn’t going to go to therapy again but I also knew that I didn’t want to lose my girlfriend and keep falling into the same trap over and over again I want this site and my journals to be my therapy I know I can beat this I know that I have the strength to overcome this addiction, it’s going to take time but I can do it I have to put myself in a positive place and not a negative one, and the most important thing is to be a better person for myself and my girlfriend. Until next time….

[likeafish34]

Good that you know you have a problem and that you are positive about overcoming it. I agree that this site can play a massive part in recovery. It is certainly playing a central role in mine. Having said that, I also think that for many PAs there are underlying problems that also need to be addressed. For me it's anxiety. I've tried therapy once and given up. She was a very nice lady, but very ineffective (I'm not saying that all therapists are like this). I'm now trying a combination of self coaching and meditation. Ultimately your recovery is in your own hands, but I would recommend looking at yourself to see if there are other factors in your life that need attention.
Good luck.
Simon

[mell]

Hi AJ and welcome to TTF,

I have been in the same boat. Start recovery, think I have control, stop recovery, go back to acting out.

I believe continued support is crucial to real recovery. Hope to see you around more. Would your GF be interested in joining the site? There are a lot of SO's here who could be very supportive to her.

Best wishes to you. Stay diligent.