rock bottoms journal

[rock bottom]

My road to recovery starts here and now.

I posted my story in new members section and don't have the strength to write it again right now. I plan to keep a daily record in this jounal to track my progress.

[dagaz]

Hey Rock Bottom, congrats on coming clean with your story and starting up your own recovery journal. Hope to 'see' more of you here.

[rock bottom]

My SO sat down and talked to me last night. She explained to me that she still loves me and always will but she is still leaving me. I can't blame her. It does make me feel better that she doesn't hate me. I am going to miss her so much. She is the light of my life and I hurt her so much. It rips my heart out to see the tears in her eyes.

The urge for p or mb is so far from my mind right now. That is to be expected with the situation I am in I guess. 4 days p free though. I guess I can use that as a positive.

[rouby]

My SO sat down and talked to me last night. She explained to me that she still loves me and always will but she is still leaving me. I can't blame her. It does make me feel better that she doesn't hate me. I am going to miss her so much. She is the light of my life and I hurt her so much. It rips my heart out to see the tears in her eyes.

rock,

I am really sorry for the hurt you are experiencing in your life right now. We hurt our SO's more than we really realize when we act out.

I just want to let you know that I am walking along beside you in this journey. I would say to post here as often as you can.

Thanks again for sharing your story.

[rock bottom]

Still crushed of how much I have hurt my SO. Still depressed. I have been spending a lot of time in prayer and introspection.this is going to be a long hard road. Thanks to those who have offered support and kind words. God bless you all.

[Phil413]

These are tough days, I know. But just think: a year from now you might look back and be amazed at how far you've come!

Stay close to God. Let him heal you and carry you through this time. He loves you.

Phil

[Misty-Eyed Matthew]

Phil is so right. Stay close to God, my friend. It has become easier for me since I have gotten baptized a little over a week ago. I have totally submerged myself in God's word. I just gave my problem to God & let HIM handle it. I hope you will be able to do the same. I pray for you, Brother.

[Misty_77]

These are tough days, I know. But just think: a year from now you might look back and be amazed at how far you've come!

Stay close to God. Let him heal you and carry you through this time. He loves you.
Phil

Phil is so right. Stay close to God, my friend. It has become easier for me since I have gotten baptized a little over a week ago. I have totally submerged myself in God's word. I just gave my problem to God & let HIM handle it. I hope you will be able to do the same. I pray for you, Brother.

I agree with Phil and my husband. Stay close to God. Make these changes for yourself! You want to be a better person and that's a huge step in the right direction! If your wife still loves you, that's a wonderful thing. Have hope...you can beat this if it's TRULY what you want for yourself and your wife. God bless you and keep you strong in your recovery.

[rock bottom]

6 days out. Thank you God. I feel a bit more at peace swith God and myself. The power of prayer is an amazing thing. I have been reading psalms and it puts me at ease. I have handed my problems over to the Lord and he has already shown that he has heard me.
Thank you all for your continued support and I pray that you all have success in in your own battles of this addiction.

[IN NEED OF HELP]

Glad to see that you are here still fighting. keep up with the progress, Everyday with no porn in it, is a great day of feeling good.

I wish you the best in your recovery