Borrowed Hope's Journal

[Borrowed Hope]

Thanks for your wonderful words everyone. I've kept your responses to help me and guide me

[FoolishMind]

Hello BorrowedHope,

It can be scary I know, Kinda like you dont trust yourself, you have been so used to this habit, that its the only way you know how to seek comfort. If you are really struggling you need to make sure you have covered every possibility of stopping yourself from viewing P. If were talking specifically of internet then you need to get an internet filter. This will be a huge defense mechanism for you, and stop you from failing.

Overtime, through habit, and education you will start to gain strength and become more confident.

Dont focus on the fear, try and be positive, try and think of how you will be without P, think how much more repsect you will have for yourself without P. Keep your focus on that.

FM

P.S. rather than posting anywhere, I think you need to stick to one thread and post within that thread so that becomes your journal. If your having trouble just ask one of the mods, there always happy to help and point you in the right direction.

Chin up chuck!

[Misty_77]

Congrats on the steps you're taking in the right direction. Way to go! I agree, keeping a journal is great. Writing has always been great therapy for me though. =) I hope you continue to journal. If it helps you in your recovery, keep it up!

[RootedinGod]

awesome post, I really enjoyed reading it.

[JenMac]

Great post BH!
Just popping in quickly to wish you a happy birthday! I hope it is an awesome one!!
Enjoy!
Jenn

[TrueBlue]

Happy Birthday Borrowed Hope!

Complaining is not so bad, as long as it's followed by action...at least that's what I tell myself :D

Anyhow, all the best to you and have a happy and strong birthday!

TB

[Misty_77]

Happy Birthday, BH! That was a really great post. Very honest and enlightening, especially for people who honestly think there's nothing wrong with P. Keep those posts coming, and stay strong!

[JustDoIt.]

Thanks for posting that, good read. Very encouraging, I enjoy your posts.

[Misty_77]

First of all, I'm sorry you're having a rough day. I pray your friend's son is okay. Stay strong for yourself and for your friend.

Where you said, "To your horror the Actress is your little girl. Now, that I have your attention realise this, that woman you see there on the screen posing/having intercourse, is someone's child. It's someone's little girl exposing herself for drugs/money/glamour/fame. The only thing she gets out of P is misuse of her soul/life/body and you get a cheap fix.", I've said something similar...it's a great point!

Don't get discouraged! Keep writing in your journal. You never know who you may be helping, without even being aware of it!

[Misty-Eyed Matthew]

My SO is right. We have 2 girls of our own & I wouldn't want them to do what I have viewed on the internet. The more I think about it the more I'm disgusted by it. Your post was great, you said what you felt. You can't get more honest than that. I'm sorry to hear about your friend's son. I'll send out a prayer for him before I go to bed. Let us know what you find out. I know your feeling sad about him, but Happy Be-Lated B-Day. Stay strong, my Brother. We are all with you in this fight to beat this sickness.