Made it to my first SAA meeting

[IN NEED OF HELP]

Well i did it. i made that 25 mile drive and went to the meeting. man i thought AA meeting where hard to go to, these SAA meeting are even harder to walk in that for the first time. it was not easy getting there, as i waited for the last min to get there. i was five minutes late, but im glad i made the drive. it is funny how kids can read threw parents. i was just looping around the house. i guess i was doing it because i wanted to run late so i had a good excuse for not going, and just say damn im not going to make it, so i will start next week. WRONG that didn't happen. my daughter says are are you doing this? just leave the house and make it to your thing you have to go to. damn her. so i left. like i said 5 minutes late, but happy i was there. I love this website. i can type out all my words, say what i want, spill my shameful guts out,explain to all of you just how sick i am, but yet you don"t see me, you don't know me, and so nice i don"t have to look you in the eyes when i talking.but there you are in front of people. whether it is 5 people or 20 people, they are all looking at you as you speak. i can handle that, because HELLOOOO they are all there for the same reason that i am. but for me is this. even as i type my words out here for all you kind people to read, believe me when i say i am crying. I cant type without crying about with what i done to me, and mostly to what i did to the ones i love so dearly. i am so much in pain over it. other than that, i can not wait to go to another meeting. if all goes good, Thursday night. Well Thank you for reading. im sorry, but i know i just ramble on at times, i don't mean to, i'm just releasing my thoughts

[JenMac]

Hi Inneedofhelp!
Releasing those feelings is just what you need to be doing! What a relief it is!
Good for you for making that meeting, even if you needed a little push, you did it! Wow! That is so brave! It can only get easier!
Keep coming here and pouring out your thoughts and feelings! It can only help in your healing!
Wishing you all the best! You have made a great start!
Jenn

[NewHope10]

I was very happy to read that you went! The next time will be easier...the next time after that easier still. Yes...you are right - you are all there for the same reason.

Good for you! Keep it up and keep coming back! We are rooting for you!!!