Seeker's thoughts

[seeker]

It seems that virtually any time alone online precipitates the urges we all feel. The same thoughts arise in my mind though my beginniner's buddhist mind often allows me to breathe in the harmful thoughts and breathe out goodness.

The day passed quite uneventfully and I am firmly on track to kick the habit.

As far as my SO goes, she will know nothing about this problem. Although I recognize the harm it causes me and have committed to eradiacting it from my daily routines, I personally feel that letting her into this world will cause more harm- to myself and to her- than good. That is ultimately the test in my opinion and everyone should use their own judgement.

I sense that my issues with p and mb, while harmful, are less intrusive and less impactful on my relationship and my life than many others in this forum. Obviously I here for support and self-improvement but I honestly don't think my issues are as severe as many I have read about. Incidentally I did consult my therapist about this issue in the past and she always indicated that it was a bad idea to disclose any such activity to my then wife or future SOs.

I am here to regain more mental focus and control over my thoughts and actions. I am glad that I came back here for accountability.

It's a great time to be alive TTFers!

[Charly22]

Glad you are here too! And glad you have the desire to keep on the right track.

Tell us more about why you think your issues with p and mb are less intrusive and less impactful on your relationship than many others?

My fear is, you have started out being only accountable to yourself....while, in the end, thats what truly matters, scary thought is how easy it will be to fool yourself.
But thank god you have ttf!!!!!!

[glovert]

I am here to regain more mental focus and control over my thoughts and actions. I am glad that I came back here for accountability.

like Charly22 said, most have found ttf a great place to be accountable for thier thoughts and actions. I've found this true as others weigh in on what I might presume to be a completly innocent action, giving thier experience that in the end helps in the win more of the battle. So yeh, just sayin ttf is great to make sure your on the right track. good to c u here