Flight to the Stars/Skies - StarPuppy Journal/Diary

[StarPuppy]

2 weeks and i fall to the Devil clutches again..I should have a stronger faith to God and a plan should i ever lose my self-control

well..Day 1 again :)

[FoolishMind]

Really straight question to you SP....

Day 1 has clearly come about on several occasions. On each occasion, what have you done differently?

It would be great for you to share this, so all members can see if we can spot a weak area in your strategy that hasnt already been pointed out.

FM

[StarPuppy]

Really straight question to you SP....

Day 1 has clearly come about on several occasions. On each occasion, what have you done differently?

It would be great for you to share this, so all members can see if we can spot a weak area in your strategy that hasnt already been pointed out.

FM

Thanks for the help. I would like the help from the members.

Firstly I would like to state i have No/little safety net because i am a person who surf the net and use MSN alot so internet has been a part of my life..so when the urges come in..i just try not to surf those sites but K9 filter will help me but its not fool-proof

[Desert Ghost]

SP, have you thought of keeping a handwritten log of your internet activities which starts by list all the web site that you are planning on visiting. Then if you think of another that you "might" want to check out that you hand write the address first be hitting the go button so to speak. This will give you a few moments to think about what you are about to do.

[StarPuppy]

Thanks for the tip but i surf around alot..like game sites or sometimes hobbies or forums..so its kind of hard to keep a checklist?

[Desert Ghost]

Well then SP you might want to start and cut back on the amount of time that you spend on the computer. An then find healthier activities for the extra free time that you will have.

[StarPuppy]

Well then SP you might want to start and cut back on the amount of time that you spend on the computer. An then find healthier activities for the extra free time that you will have.

can't live without the games and anime on the net but will try to cut down..thanks for the advice :)

[Desert Ghost]

SP I sure hope that the Anime you are watching is the tamer forms of it. Because I know that some of the Anime is very explicit in their content. An if your choice of Anime and games are of a risky nature then all you are doing is put your recovery at risk of failure.#:-s

[StarPuppy]

Thanks for the concern DG, all of my animes are comedy and is not on the ecchi(Ndity,skimpy)kind. The reason why i relapse is because i am lonely

My girl and i have not been physical intimate(non-Sxual) for a year or so. Other than the occasion hug and a quick peck when meeting, its been quite quiet. The sweet nothings are also childish to her now..something which i thrive on(I admit i am still in puppy love). Which now results in arguments everyday over small things and our beliefs are also drifting apart

We aruged yesterday and asked for a cooling period because shes away for a week on a holiday..and now i sorta miss her even tho we are walking in different direction..the feeling sucks

On one hand, I love God and God is my pillar of strength but yet at the same time, why do i miss my girl which we haven been intimate for a year plus and constant arguements?

So lost :((

[Vorlan]

Hey SP,

It's been a while since I posted here last. Sorry I havn't been around as I've had exams.

What you were just saying about relapsing due to lonliness reminded me of the HALT acronym:

Hungry
Alone
Lonely
Tierd

If one of these is present then you should be careful on the internet. If any two are present then you should not be on the internet unless it is important. If three or four are present then you should not be on the internet full stop.

I'm not overly concerned about the anime; I watch a fair bit of anime myself and you generally know what is and is not triggering. It's pretty easy to stay safe there. What is more dangerous is random surfing from website to website. That's a very, very dangerous activity as P could easily become just one foolish click away.

So if you really want to recover from this then you may have to ask yourself what is more important? Random surfing time or recovery? In my experience it is hard to do both at the same time. That's not to say you can't be on the internet, play games, watch anime, look for new websites etc. But you have to be controlled about it and never be in the situation where you are bored, tierd and on your own browsing through the internet on your own because that is when relapse happens.

I hope that wasn't too blunt mate but I want you to beat this so I didn't want to mince words.

Best of luck to you man,

Ben