Flight to the Stars/Skies - StarPuppy Journal/Diary

[StarPuppy]

I have sort of lost all hope all man kind..i feel that the world is..evil

the only compassionate people are humble people and people who are forgiving..society forces us to chase for paper qualifications and also luxury items

we are "taught" how to manipulate people and step on them to get what we have to go get up the ladder


anyway lately i have been very sarcastic to people..my tone and such because i feel that everybody is just making use of me..nobody really cares..its like after my army/school/work is done...we just go our separate ways

[Desert Ghost]

I have sort of lost all hope all man kind..i feel that the world is..evil

the only compassionate people are humble people and people who are forgiving..society forces us to chase for paper qualifications and also luxury items

we are "taught" how to manipulate people and step on them to get what we have to go get up the ladder


anyway lately i have been very sarcastic to people..my tone and such because i feel that everybody is just making use of me..nobody really cares..its like after my army/school/work is done...we just go our separate ways

StarPuppy, I am wondering have you taken stock of your emotions to see why you are feeling no hope for mankind. In the past I have had the same feelings, an taking the time to examine my own feelings and emotions. I discovered that I had lost hope in myself, which I projected out ward on everyone around me. Thus making me a very unpleasant person to be around which drove things further out of control.

This is a very narrow view...society forces us to chase for paper qualifications and also luxury items...I have come to realize that we do this to ourselves and are not forced. Remember that our Higher Power has given one great gift and that is free-will.

We may be taught to manipulate people and step on them to get what we have to go get up the ladder, but we freely choose to do these things and others in that mad race to be accepted by society. In the long run is it really that important or is it more important to be remember as a fair, honest and care person.

[StarPuppy]

Although i now believe in God but still i feel alone, God is watching me to protect me from harm. I feel that if i die, nobody except my parents will miss me

[glovert]

StarPuppy, you're correct the world is a cruel place, but in everything you have to keep on seeing the light and the positive. It's very easy to block out thoughs, but in the end if you do, you're not living life, the only one you've got. You said your a man who believes in God, well then you obviously believe that there is always hope, always something better and that someone is always looking out for you. part of the reason I decided to quit P was to go on living life, to no longer have the negatives and the guilt holding me back. I can't give you a quote but there are a few Christian biblical references saying that God is not off this world, and the bleakness that happens here is not important (prob Eccleciastis) You have to make the decision to find the goodness of the world in yourself and not worry about the rest of the world's worries that would always bring you (or any1 for that matter) down. Just my 2 cents anyway

[StarPuppy]

Thank glovert and DG, i am on a emotional rollercoaster but i think its the lack of social issues and also i am regretting how my life was spend watching P instead of studying hard in the past

[StarPuppy]

Sometimes i feel sorry for all of us of which society pushes us to be who we are, tabloids/gossips are the headlines, we thrive on people misfortune but we never to stop and smell the good of human life but instead chase on material stuff =x

[justsomerandomdude]

SP, I really can identify myself in your thoughts about the world being a cruel place and being "pushed". However, those feelings tend to go away when I have a good day and I have a reason to feel proud of myself. Right now I am in a "low period" and feel the same, but I know it will change.
And it will change for you too, SP, you just have to give it time and keep fighting for a good life for yourself. Don't look at what "society" wants you to do, look at what where you want to see yourself, look at the small good things you have around you. Maybe you did something good yesterday or today, or maybe someone did something good to you, keep that in mind instead of looking at all the evil in the world. The evil will always be there, no matter what, so we have try not to let ourselves down to the same level.

Wish you all the best on your way to happiness and peace.

[castaway16]

Hey SP !

It's been a while buddy. Hope you're doing fine with you're PA.

From you're last few posts, I want to talk to you about a couple of points if I may :

1- you're gf, it seems to me that it's best to get out of that relationship, as you seem to be putting too much effort into making this work, and yet it's still obviously not.

2- I know there are lots of bad things in our world, but at least this community is a proof there's still good in mankind. And there are lots of good examples too I'm sure. Sometimes I too think I hate this world, everywhere there are wars and disputes .. etc. but I remember the amazing pace at which humans progressed, and the scientific breakthroughs that virtually made everything possible now, and think to myself that in the future it will work out for the good. There are lots of stuff to like in this world SP, just take your focus off those little things that make you feel bad. ;)

[StarPuppy]

Hi all, its has been about 1-2 week since I MBed or watched P, the 1st week was tough but strangely the 2nd week was ok, I been talking about Christianity with my friends alot. I would say its only recently that i felt His presence and now i am feeling comfort in His care :)

I am new to all this and i am not a full fledged Christian yet(because i worry there will be some issues with my parents but i feel warmth in God because there are events that shown me that He is around and i feel comfort because unlike my present enviroment(which i said earlier back) i given almost all hope on everyone, people not helping each other but instead thriving on everyone misfortune but yet God is caring and forgiving to my mistakes and the best is He loves me for who i am :)

anyway my life has been okay so far and i hope all my readers will have a good week ahead

[StarPuppy]

2 weeks and 2 days clean and no urge ever since I decided the Lord is my shephard for He who will love me for i am and is unbiased. I would like to quote a phrase from my favourite song (Casting Crowns - Who am I)

Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are

I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
Vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours

Even tho the whole world might be against me, i am sure He will still stand by me and guide me through my darkest times

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