Flight to the Stars/Skies - StarPuppy Journal/Diary

[castaway16]

oh .. sorry about your slip SP !

Although, I tend to find illness periods easier PA wise. ;)

[StarPuppy]

Thanks castaway..really bored at home..and being lazy, thats a bad thing..i am lazy as it is

[StarPuppy]

i decided to show my girl more concern because i felt that i was taking her care for granted but it seems that by talking to her earlier instead of the normal time when she is going to sleep..it seems that calling her earlier is "disturbing her" and also said that "calling her earlier means i love her and later on means i don't love her"

I don't see whats wrong by calling her earlier..sometimes you feel lovesick for your SO and just want to talk to them..but somehow this is not how she felt..i felt so hurt when she said all those hurtful statements and "i never remember that i should not call her earlier before the appointed time" and that "I just want to enjoy watching my show but you had to disturb my peace"

that is so hurtful :((

[youngarmywife]

Hi, starpuppy. It's nice to "meet" you. I hope you don't mind me posting here!

I am sorry that your lady friend hurt your feelings. I was just thinking that when I have a bad day, I sometimes can be mean and take it out on others. I always try to remember that when someone else is mean to me... Maybe they're just having a bad day.

Anyway, just a thought! Good luck in your journey!

[StarPuppy]

hi, its nice to meet you too yaw

we haven't been calling/smsing each other for 2 days

I thought i could or.... rather we could have the intimacy like the initial stage of dating when it was all roses and good and it was ok to call anytime because she didn't mind..now shes just snappy

I don't want to back down because its nothing wrong of me to show that i want to care more..why should i say sorry for "calling at the wrong time" and "calling earlier = loving her less"

I feel its like she doesn't really care for the intimacy stuff anymore..I don't blow up at her when i am having a hard day

[boris]

It hurts when you try to show your love for your SO, only to be chastised and made to feel your efforts are no more than an irritant. By intimacy stuff do you mean the tenderness, closeness,and caring, talking and just enjoying each others company? Because that's just as important as sexual intimacy, in fact more important in sustaining a long term relationship. It sounds like that is what you really would like to get back in your relationship. Have you two discussed trying to rekindle these feelings? I'm not good at expressing my needs, so I know that it's easy to say, "Just talk about it." In reality it is really hard sometimes to allow yourself to be vulnerable. The fear of rejection often keeps us in the same holding pattern. It may not be a good place, but it's a sure thing. Not the most healthy thing.

Don't give up on trying to save your relationship, SP. If in the end, you split from each other, you will at least know that you did all you could. I'm in no way suggesting that this is where your relationship is heading. I'm only saying that if it's worth fighting for, then it's worth all of your effort; and you seem to be giving it all you've got.

I'm keeping you in my prayers.
Boris

[StarPuppy]

I just don't feel like talking to her even tho shes sends me caring messages and telling me to take care and not forget my lunch

i am just so hurt and slightly annoyed..we don't talk every night, she msgs me that shes tried and wants to talk early however i just call her and say that if shes tired, she should go to sleep.

I am just on a short fuse nowadays..everything thing pisses me off so easily

[StarPuppy]

i hate being depressed but i can't help it...everything pisses me off..why mom wouldn't stop shouting in the whole house..why wouldn't she shut up and listen to others or at least hear on what other people has to say..shes always right ..its the same with girlfriend..why must they all talk like i am deaf..why can't they be soft spoken..told girlfriend that shes loud and resembles my mother which i am starting to hate..shes just gets angry and speaks loudly..why must people be so LOUD?

[Crisodian]

AG can tell you, his family is always loud. He or she who speaks the loudest, over and on top of everyone else is heard while the others are a duller roar. Even my children, who by nature are loud and rowdy boys, do not want to spend time in that environment. Too much.

ugh.

Sorry to hear it's so loud.

Peace,
~C~

[StarPuppy]

I dunno why people have to be LOUD

in fact the font size on LOUD hurts my eyes but it is annoying..why can't people be soft spoken instead :((

I feel like slicing off the vocal cords all those who laugh like hyenas on people misfortune, those who talk/shout loudly on their cellphones just to be heard