Flight to the Stars/Skies - StarPuppy Journal/Diary

[Bird-boy]

Hi SP.
I'm a little bit late in joining your new journal, but I like what's been posted so far.

Especially in the first post about focusing on improving and on How to improve, instead of counting days. I just typed about that in my journal yesterday or today--before reading it here.

I'm having some distress tonight, but whether anything happens or not I will still need to figure out how to improve myself. Hopefully we can do that together.

[StarPuppy]

Its been a sad sad past few weeks for me..I relapsed and recovered despite swore NOT to during this new year.

Well since i managed to slip through google image safesearch(despite k9 filter), i thought heck with it..if i am gonna block, might as well knock it up a notch higher, BLOCK google image once and for all

looks like its doing well so far

I didn't post on my own blog because i can talk the talk to people but not walk the walk :((

[WifeOfNewLifeMan]

starpuppy-

Sorry to hear you slipped up. But you are still trying so don't give up.

[FoolishMind]

StarPuppy, consider it a lesson learned dude, I dont think any lesser of yourself, Its fine to fall, but learn from it. If you dont learn from the falls, thats when you know you have a problem, and your not being honest with yourself.

FYI, I cant search images in Google. Infact There isnt a lot I can do on the internet! haha. But its all good.

If there is any advice I can give you for your current mindset is dont over focus on how your going to improve yourself, just be clear in what you have to do, and and do it.

Its clear one of your main triggers is when your stressed, depressed or feel some self loathing. Remember, after the act of P/MB you know how low you will feel, so remember that trying to get the high, is only going to be followed by an almighty low. Use that hindsight to your advantage.

FM

[StarPuppy]

Thanks to all who read my journal, i appreciate it..but i hate it when the urge for me to MB and u know... reach that climax, its just so hard to fight it that urge off

anyway, its 1.15am/ 24Jan2010

Its quiet and yes, i should be heading to bed but i am waiting for my hair to dry, step out of the bath

Now..i have a question to ask the guys and the couples

- Why do us guys are attracted to woman bodily parts such as b***st and a**?

- What is it that keeps the r/s going when there is a argument or a disagreement in intimacy and mindset?

[StarPuppy]

Ok..let me see if i can finish today post in 5 mins..have to wake up early tomorrow

24/Jan/2010, 925pm
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I am angry with work, why?

because i am a nice guy, i help everyone so at least they will recognize as a trustful person "hey..at least hes some one who i can trust him when i need help and hes a nice fellow"

I mean i dun want anything in return, only just treat me like a friend but lately i feel that i am doing all the crap at work, nobody cares about the office stores, i take care of it and stock them up. and all they do is just "thanks" even the newcomer in my office is treated more warmly than me.

I mean i don't talk much because i am a little boring but at least at least don't treat me like a ball, kicking me around as you please. asking me for help when you need it, but i need favours from you guys, you just turn me down giving some lame reason but chances are because its not gonna benefit you

i do all the things right but when i get it wrong, people tend grind me down..whats wrong people? haven't you guys make mistakes before? while the more social guys in the office get it less harsh compared to me


Anyways sorry guys..i am just ranting..thats the life in army

[Athenon]

Anyways sorry guys..i am just ranting..thats the life in army

I'm pretty sure life is like that everywhere. Things are not gonna change much or probably change that much in that lifetime. I say it is better to adapt then fight it or resist it. The sooner we realize that the sooner we can start looking at life as the challenge it is and realize what we need to do to get better. In our case getting sober is a pretty good start ;)

[Dewvis]

I'm pretty sure life is like that everywhere. Things are not gonna change much or probably change that much in that lifetime.

Some things we can change, other things we can't. It helps to realize exactly what those things are.

"God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change"

There is so much that we cannot change, like other people for instance.

"God grant me courage to change the things I can..."

Overcoming our own bad habits is something we CAN do.

[StarPuppy]

thanks guys but the thing is this..i mean i do my best in what i do and all i get is reprimandation. I mean why do i even bother giving my best if all i get is reprimand..just because people sees it not as perfect but its good enough for me..why can't they accept it that way

[Dewvis]

thanks guys but the thing is this..i mean i do my best in what i do and all i get is reprimandation. I mean why do i even bother giving my best if all i get is reprimand..just because people sees it not as perfect but its good enough for me..why can't they accept it that way

It's frustrating I know.

I quit my job last year because the job was so hard, and no one cared about the 99% of the time where I did things right; they only focused on the 1% of the time where I made a mistake.

I'm a human being, not an android.