Flight to the Stars/Skies - StarPuppy Journal/Diary

[StarPuppy]

Thanks arty :) anyway I feel that iam too emotional? I tend to respond to people feeling because i don't want to hurt them but in doing so, i neglect on my own..its like a double edge sword. If i do not help a friend in need, i will feel bad but if i do, their work would mean my work too and their fault becomes my fault too

anyway gf is having burnout at work lately, shes undergoing some company restructuring (thank goodness she wasn't retrenched) and shes doing 2-3 person worth of work for the pay of 1. I feel for her as her bf and i feel helpless because there is nothing i can do. I know she needs emotional support to cry out to but i can't be with her bcause she doesn't want me to stay with her after work because i have to work the next day and she doesn't want me to be tired. I been giving her emotional support over the phone tho saying stuff like i will always be with her no matter what happens and she being sick will hurt me too

I just want to hold her in my arms and comfort her that i will always be with her, i think this is the moment of time that one needs that physical and emotional support, shes been snappy and i don't blame her, just feeling helpless because i couldn't do more..I am not a romantic guy by nature

:(

[StarPuppy]

I been dozing off at the PC lately..so hard to keep up with posts :( gf been in those stormy weather again due to work..i fel upset now..feels like its not fait that i get the fierce end of it..she wants to work in another company as her friend is working at but i advice her that it might not be the best option as friends can be good to have but they might not be the best work mates.

and she flare at me for being such unspoortive..i just dun't want her to lose a friend..is it my fault? :(

[artguy34]

Hey StarPuppy,

Sometimes is not what you say, it is how you say it! Next time when you're talking to your g/f try to be a little more understanding of her situation and be tactful when giving suggestions. Maybe it's how she perceived your comments that made her upset at you?

Just something to consider?

Hope all gets better!

[glovert]

SP on your prior post there's nothing wrong with being emotional. in fact, if this addiction has taught me anything it's to be in touch with how you honestly feel whether bad or good and admit it to urself (if that makes sense). The important thing is to control your emotions as you still don't want ppl taking advantage of you!

as for your gf myabe artguy34's right. just try and talk 2 her and understand her point of view I guess. hope it all works out

[StarPuppy]

i feel so lonely lately, a bunch of my friends went to another for a party, I was the only one wasn't invited, i felt so hurt, i am always the guy left out :( even mr nerd got invited..I just saw the pictures on facebook

Sometimes is it the reason that i am attached or am i too boring :(

[StarPuppy]

I relapsed and it felt like crap, i felt so dirty after the deed. i hate myself :((

[cyberpunk]

SP, I'm sorry that it happened. I know that horrible letdown feeling when I relapse and then realize that it wasn't worth it. However, it shows a lot of integrity that you are being honest about it. Everyone makes mistakes, but don't wallow in the mire, time to pick yourself and get back on track.

[StarPuppy]

SP, I'm sorry that it happened. I know that horrible letdown feeling when I relapse and then realize that it wasn't worth it. However, it shows a lot of integrity that you are being honest about it. Everyone makes mistakes, but don't wallow in the mire, time to pick yourself and get back on track.

I am just disgusted with myself and with P, I am such a hypocritical person, telling others to stay strong but i can't keep the fight myself, i fel so dirty and cheap :(

[castaway16]

Hi SP, really sorry to know about your relapse.
The hardest thing after a relapse is picking yourself up quickly, so if you could do that, it would still be an achievement.
What do you think went wrong that made you relapse ? Dig for that and be determined to fix it.
You have been clean for quite a while now, right ? Well think about it this way, after another year of staying sober, this one day will be insignificant.

[StarPuppy]

I am gonna have a run this sunday morning to train up for my Half marathron and hopefully it will kill the urges o:-)