Flight to the Stars/Skies - StarPuppy Journal/Diary

[StarPuppy]

1150 am, just done folding the laundry, glad that i have no urges to MB, think i will clean my desk/room and PC too.

Thinking of reformatting my PC but if K9 is gone, the devil might just attack me without K9 protecting me.

Oh well..time to get busy and thank God for giving me a brand new day to do what i want :)

[65Ford]

That has been one of the biggest realizations in the past week, that I am not alone. I mean, I guess I always "knew" all those photographers out there weren't doing this just for me. But those other people weren't like me, right? There's something wrong with them. Not me. Yeah, right.

Turns out there were a lot of people out there like me, people who knew it is wrong, but did it anyway. And that's what I'm thankful for today.

Thanks Ford and DG

I would like to say even tho i may be blessed but let us look in the view that we are not fighting this battle alone, (your SO, our TTF)

all with us :D

[StarPuppy]

That has been one of the biggest realizations in the past week, that I am not alone. I mean, I guess I always "knew" all those photographers out there weren't doing this just for me. But those other people weren't like me, right? There's something wrong with them. Not me. Yeah, right.

Turns out there were a lot of people out there like me, people who knew it is wrong, but did it anyway. And that's what I'm thankful for today.

Its great that you have woke up and seen the light and decided it is time to change compared to the rest who have yet to see the evil of P and i am thankful to have you join our TTF family :)

[StarPuppy]

Thanks to all, my parents are well however with my mum,this week would be critical for her in the sense that the kidney might be rejected but the doctor said that it is not life threatening but i am still worried of any complications, I am asking God for his help [-O<

On to other topics, I just done getting the laundry out of the washing machine and i am hanging them to be dry. After breakfast i should be washing my shoes but i can't find a brush..hmm might sweep and mop the floor while the shoes are being soaked with soap.

my Task would be that for the day if any free time left, i would try to study more in preparation for my Maths exams(i am retaking so that i could enter Polytechnic[Tertiary education] or as the American standards - 11/12 Grade)

Would any kind people out there who does housework teach me how to clean shoes(sneakers)? :)

God bless everyone today

[Desert Ghost]

SP, your parents should be proud of you for doing the house work. As for cleaning sneakers it depends on the brand and style, some of them can be tossed in the washing machine and washed then air dried. Others you use a wet cloth and wipe them off.

[65Ford]

Wow, you are a cleaning machine! There's got to be a metaphor in there somewhere...

Yeah, shoes can be tough. As DG said, some you can actually throw in the washer. I've also had success on some shoes just spraying with a household cleaner (such as 409 or similar) and wiping them with paper towels.

[StarPuppy]

nah, i have to take care of the house somehow, its just that i am glad i have stuff to do other than relapse into P but thanks for the compliment :)

I decided to clean my shoes with brushing clean with my old toothpaste and some detergent, I have to clean them because it hasn't been clean since like 6-7 months ago? because i left it in my locker in the office (I am serving in the army btw) and i was too lazy to bring it home to wash

I think i will post my journal tomorrow, a little emo tonight ~X(

[Desert Ghost]

I think i will post my journal tomorrow, a little emo tonight ~X(

SP, that is when you should be posting it allows you get those emo feeling out and in the open where you can examine them as well as getting feed back from others that can help you maybe understand where the feeling are coming form.>:D<

[StarPuppy]

Thanks DG, i wanted to post last night but K9 had shut down my surfing access but the email was working and saw your reply

Sigh..how do i start? As you all know that my parents are currently in the hospital and i am more worried for my mother compared to my father as her immune system is lower

Anyway my girl went to the hospital with on Wednesday night(Today is Friday) and i was a little sensitive because i was afraid of the weak immune system that my mother had, She was touching the bed railing and i got annoyed and told her not touch because of the germs transmitted and when the nurse came in, my mother refused to take her meds and my girl was telling her not to worry, the nurse wants to feed her, i told her to keep quiet and let the nurse to do her work.

Later we went out to quarrel because she was upset that i told her to keep quiet, on my part was that she should let the nurse to handle my mother, shes not a nurse, we should let the nurse do what they are trained to do. And thus she walked off (something i hated, this is not the first time) .

After a while, i thought of my actions and tried calling her but she didn't picked up the call and said that she was already home (about 20 mins later) and didn't want to talk to me.

So we didn't talk until last night where she had cooled down and e started arguing again because..of nothing to talk about(yes..we are able to argue over that)

I was asking her how is work, trying to care about her and she got very annoyed , saying that she didn't want to talk about work after a long day.

my stand was that the least i could do was to hear her problems at work and be a listening ear

She was also unhappy why i could talk more towards my friends and not her.

I told her that initially i did try telling her about work, i was bullied when i was new at work(my previous journal was about bully vocally abusing me until i was traumatized and i had to see a counselor) but all she did was to say "you don't have to care about him, just ignore him and do your work"

You know its those one liners that really made my problems shut off from her, at least with my buddies, they offer different viewpoints of looking at things.

In the past, when she had a problem, i always offered her multiple options and stuff. I have always been a quiet and philosophical person, more towards the calm side meanwhile she has always been the hot-tempered and simple person.

I am in a way tired because her behavior are different from me, She is the muscle, independent, able to cook/clean and take care of all the housework but she isn't so open with her emotional feelings, meanwhile i am the brain, slightly weakerbut i offer emotional care and i always am interested in philosophical question which is something that she is unable to give because she doesn't want to think/ care so much

[Charly22]

your differences can be beneficial....