Starting my journal

[Newlifeman]

Easter! This was a very good day for me...the message at church hit home like no other and I feel I must share with everyone. The way it was put today was like this: In order for us to live, we must die first. All of the plants/food we eat, they must die first so the seeds will find the ground and begin to grow new plants, the plants themselves grow and bring about fruits and vegetables which then die as consume them...so that we may live! This cycle is true in us a well. For us to truly live, we must let our current life die....so that we may live a new life!

This message hit home with me! In the past, I was not willing to see what I was doing, who I was hurting, what I was missing. Not until I lost everything, my family, my marriage, respect, honesty, everything! This is not how I would have wanted to to get to this point in my life, or for anyone else, but I can not change this.

I did not give up my old life easily, I have my SO to thank for forcing me to face the facts of my life and the consequences of my actions. A point came where a choice was put before me, to continue in my PA.......or....choose a new life without it. I chose the new life! I chose to belive that my wife and family, and even myself were more important than my old life! Understand that the choice was easy....everything after is not necessarily as easy. Repairing broken relationships, re-establishing trust, healing SO's pain, the list goes on. But let me get to the finish with just a few main points to take home:

1) We must give up our old life....all of it to begin a new one!

2) Saying it is one thing, doing this requires hard work, discipline, and dedication. Whether in yourself or with God, this also requires faith!

I have been sober since November, I stopped lying and began my journey with honesty in December. I have found faith in God and myself since then. I have confessed to my 16 year old son so that he would know the truth about why monitoring software is on his computer. I am now working to repair the relationship with my SO. There is a tremendous amount of hard work ahead for me, but I have begun a NEW LIFE!

It is my hope and wish that all of you that have come here for help will make the same choice in your life! Choose to let the old life go so that you can begin anew. Everyday when you wake, renew your faith and make the choice again and again! I want this for you....so make your choice!

[maggie]

Inspirational NewLifeMan.....Thank you

Now I see why the " Wifeof NLM and the real NLM are connected "

You're both intelligent people that are willing to share your knowledge with others.

[Newlifeman]

Maggieliz,

Thank you for the kind words!

I sincerely hope that I can be of help, that out of my painful experiences i can bring good to others. I know WoNLM has already done so, she is an amazing person!

Thanks again.

[WifeOfNewLifeMan]

I don't know about amazing, but we are a good team. :)

[Daniel]

Excellent excellent point NewLifeMan, thank you!

I'm glad to hear of your progress and more importantly your personal revelation of what is required and indeed how great the New Life can be!

Onward!,

Daniel

[Newlifeman]

So today is one of those days....it is Mothers Day. I wished my SO a happy mothers day by e-mail as she half a world away. I tried calling by phone but missed her, so here I sit feeling down, feeling that I need to do more.

So do I sit here having a pity party? Or...do I make a choice?

I choose to:
- Write to my wife
- Read a book
- Watch a movie
- Clean the house
- Cook
- Go for a run
- Facebook
- Phone a friend
- Watch Mongolian Death Worms on Sci Fi Channel when my son gets home
- Live better

I made a choice today..

Will you do the same?