maybe a journal will help?

[castaway16]

Hast, if you could make it 200 days, you're definitely able to make it for a whole year. I agree with 2frustrated though.

I'm happy to see you at such a nice place : "living life as it's meant to be", so I think that should be the main goal.

And another thing, thanks for being around Hast. Really. :)

[hast]

You know, lately I've had this odd thing happening. I crave the feeling I used to have when looking at P...but P just doesn't do it for me, anymore. Not to mention, it's not something that controls me...it's almost a side thought. Like "Hey, wouldn't that be great if I could feel that rush again?" Only I can't. Like...I never even get around to trying P because it holds absolutely no appeal, anymore! There is no rush when I see it, and I'm actually quite disgusted by it, these days. I can't even believe this! It's the weirdest feeling.

I kind of miss that feeling....but it's in the way I'd imagine a smoker would miss cigarettes. Only not even the same because I don't get anything out of it, anymore! It's fantastic, really. I'm freed from my addiction! There is hope, everyone! It's like I never even felt anything more than disgust and sadness towards P. This is the best feeling. Try hard to get to this, everyone!

[hast]

Dear everyone,

I left this site for a long time. It was what I needed to do because I really needed to not concentrate on the addiction in order to finish getting over it.

It worked! I am NOT chained by my addiction any longer. It takes pretty risque stuff to trigger me and it's not all that hard to stop myself from going there when I am triggered. I really wouldn't call it an addiction, anymore!

I haven't been without my slip-ups, but honestly what I have done has been kind of because I miss having that escape from life, sometimes...but typically it doesn't take long at all for me to be like "ew this is not love and it is just...no." haha and I exit out and go about my business. I cannot tell you how wonderful it feels to be free! I don't know how many of you are still around, but I thought you would like to know there is hope :)

[hast]

Oh my goodness, just reading through some of this journal makes me remember how much I love you guys! Mefree, Castaway, and WifeofNewLifeMan, I can't tell you how much you guys changed my life. I love you! ♥

[castaway16]

I now know how I missed your recent posts. last October I was incredibly busy and mostly out of town.

Reading this, that I might have affected someone's life even a little bit, just made my day.

♥
Castaway.

[WifeOfNewLifeMan]

hast-

I don't post much any more, but I am glad I logged on today when castaway commented since it bumped up your post. I am glad you are doing better. So, if you check in again sometime, know that I think of you from time to time and I am so proud of you!