Pipster's Journal

[FoolishMind]

Hi Pipster, hope your keeping well, and you certainly sound happier.

Youve made a very bold statement in that post, but am a little confused so hopefully you can enlighten me. You say "You THINK your a transexual" - Can you really think that? i thought you either are or you are not. as from my understanding a transexual is someone who has had an operation to change the gender, or is at least in the phase of changing there gender?

Secondly, while in the state of slight confusion, I appreciate its great to log this in your journal, and I acknowledge youve heeded a warning as this could be triggering to some, but defo tone down some explanation of the clothing your buying and trying on etc. and as a community friend would highly reccomend asking these type of questions in a specific forum for this, like you have mentioned that you joined.

Good luck in finding out more about yourself, and get the answers your looking for.

FM

[dave42]

Hey, Pipster!

It's great, as always, to hear about your journey. Well, my friend, it sounds like you are making some important discoveries about yourself. It's clear you are excited and optimistic about things, so I'm happy for you. I think that you are at an age when exploring who you are is not only healthy, but expected! For young adults, learning about your sexuality and your identity is pretty much the Number One item on the list of things to do! So, congratulations as you go through this process.

Even though I'm a gay man, I have to admit I know almost nothing about "trans" issues. But I know this: we all care about you, we all are praying for you, and we want you to blossom and become the happiest, healthiest Pipster you can be.

Warmly,

Dave

[pipster22]

After a long break, I am back.

I am not going to go back to my last post, as I realized this really isn't the place to try and work out that issue.

I have been relapsing like no other for the past month, I have written it off as okay because of all the stress that comes with my math class. But, the class ends in a week and I have a bad feeling that that won't be enough to get me to stop again.

I feel like so many things in my life have fallen back into place. All the things that once tormented me are now slowly but surley fixing themselves.

Why am I still not happy? The only reason I can think of is this addiction. Sometimes I will wake up in the morning singing and humming my favorite songs, bouncing off the walls. But that hasn't happened in a long time, and I have to ask myself why.

So here I am, yet again, trying to kick this thing out of my life.

[StarPuppy]

Hey Pippy..sorry to hear that everything sucks but try to come back on the right path and back into TTF..Share with us your daily thoughts and let us be your beacon of light o:-)

[dave42]

Hi Pipster (and StarPuppy!):

I haven't been around for months, but I'm sober. In fact I have 9 months of sobriety! Woo hoo! How are you doing?

[StarPuppy]

Nows that a rare sight.. hows life? o:-)

[dave42]

Hey StarPuppy! Great to be back, but where is the Pip?!?

[dave42]

Piiiiiiiiiiiipster?! Yuuuuuhuuuuu! Where the *$%$ are you my friend?! We miss you.

[pipster22]

Wow!

I have no idea how to explain the places I have been. It's been so long. I completely forgot about TFF, and my porn addiction in general.

For the most part, I have just accepted it. I have accepted it as a part of my life, because as of now, it's the least of my worries.

I somehow made an awful transition from porn (more like in conjunction with porn) to alcohol and perscription pill abuse. Until recently, when I was confronted by my parents and friends, I had no idea what I was even doing.

Alcohol has taken over my life. I have found that it's something that can't even compare to porn.

I don't know what else to say.... it makes me sad to see the person I've become... and i don't see it changing anytime soon. I fear I have entered a path of life that's going to be quite challenging to return from.

[dave42]

Welcome back! Sounds like your parents and friends want you to...what? Get help, right? We do too. All of us at TTF want you to get help. NOW, damn it. Get help. Get your butt in recovery right now. No excuses. Tough love, buddy, tough love. Get help. You need help. Go.