Dave42's Very Gay Journal of Recovery

[pipster22]

Dave!!
have missed seeing you. it is good to see you back posting again. i am sorry about the major relapses, but you can get right back on the wagon and keep going. it's a new year and time to start over fresh!

keep posting! :)

Pippy

[Daniel]

BACK TO THE LIGHT! BACK TO THE LIGHT!

Welcome back Dave.

PS: cool new avatar!

[dave42]

Wow:

How cool to have welcome back messages from Crisodian, Daniel, Pipster, and ArtGuy!

Okay, dusting off the action plan:

1. My partner is trying to help me re-install k9 filter.
2. I am trying to use the computer only when absolutely necessary, and only for very specific tasks
3. I'm trying hard to deepen my spiritual life
4. I'm working on balance in my life.

Hope you are all doing great!

Warmly,

Dave

[Pandora's Hope]

Dave,
It made me sad to hear you slipped and fell flat on your tush, but very glad to hear you wised up and came back! We'll all do what we can to help you regain the momentum you lost. You CAN defeat this thing, one day at a time.
hugs
pandora

[dave42]

I attended my first sex addicts meeting this evening. I recommend it to any of you who, like me, might be hesitant to go. It was difficult to get through the door, but once I heard stories similar to mine, it was useful. Saying, "Hi, I'm Dave and I'm a sex addict" was tough. I've written it here before, I guess, or at least talked opening and at length about my addiction, but saying it was somewhat difficult.

I've had a rough day, to be honest. I did fine yesterday and the day before, but today I really had a moment of weakness when I entered a chat room, called up the strip club to see who was dancing, and flirted with the idea of going. Luckily, I ended up realizing that I needed to go to the sex addicts meeting instead. Reallly glad I went. Good luck everyone!

[Crisodian]

dave,
I'm sending you a big virtual hug. It's so hard to actually open up in front of strangers and admit big weaknesses like addiction. It was something I could not do for years and years. I'd say "I'm proud of you" but that would make me sound like a mommy...lol So I will simply say your strength is greater than my own was when I was in the throws of my addiction and that speaks volumes about you as a man and a recovering addict.

I'm glad you went and I am glad you got back on the path before you ended up back at the club last night. You can do this. We all believe in you.

Just remember that we're here for you. Tackle this one day at a time.

Peace,
~C~

[dave42]

Thanks, Crisodian! I appreciate your amazing support! I had a good day today, although the minute, the second I got home from work I went to the kitchen and over ate like crazy. What is that about? I just ate like a lunatic. sigh...I have a bad habit of doing this, and I don't know why, exactly. I do know that it is a sign that my life is out of whack, and that I need to really focus carefully on balance. Thanks everyone for your support! My best, Dave

[dave42]

hi everyone: I had a slip up last night after I wrote the last posting, but it didn't last too long. sigh...today has been good addiction-wise, and I'm heading off to bed. Something a guy said at the meeting I attended yesterday stuck with me: he said something like, "I must respect this disease." I think what he meant was that he had to take its power seriously. Good thought for me to mull over. This disease of addiction to p is powerful, and if I respect it, I'll be less likely to mess up.

[Pandora's Hope]

You're doing all the right things now, Dave- I have faith you'll beat this thing! You can do it- one day, one step at a time. The simple fact that you let us all know about a small slip instead of making excuses to yourself is a good sign that you're heading back in the right direction! If we weren't powerless over our addictions, we wouldn't be addicts, right? You know what you've got to do- now go DO it! and remember we're all back here, rooting for you...

[dave42]

Thanks, Pandora's Hope! I appreciate your support a lot! The truth is that I had yet another slip. Today, a few hours ago. I've spent the last couple of hours trying to set up a new filter. I am flickering in and out, although I do feel that this time I'm going to try hard to make a go of it that lasts more than a few hours! I'm a mess. But I'm going to try again. Thanks!