My Struggle - HalfPint

[HalfPint]

Seriously, I cant think of enough ways to thank all of you for the support you just offered me. At a time that I really needed encouragement you guys all pulled together and offered words of encouragement that have more than encouraged me. Its re-lighting my flame to keep strong against this.

Firstly, castaway, thank you. the whole "3 month" thing really hasn't settled in yet I suppose. Its amazing that I've made it this far and praise God for that lol. It means a lot to me what you said. It was almost more of an eye opener than "pat pat, it will be okay" I really appreciated that, and it helped out a lot. That was seriously the right thing to say at the right time. Just to add to it, eon, thank you as well. You came in, and re-explained to me that nocturnal emissions aren't something to feel guilty about, which I think is what brought on the depression. You reminded me that it is natural and that its just a leak, not a breach. And finally Foolish, thank you for the kind words as well. Its true, the honeymoon period is over (darn it all) but that doesn't mean that my strength is gone. I just need to focus more now and make sure that I use the strength that I gained during that time to my advantage.

Again, thanks guys, I appreciate it.

Heres to just over 88 days! :)

[castaway16]

ts true, the honeymoon period is over (darn it all) but that doesn't mean that my strength is gone. I just need to focus more now and make sure that I use the strength that I gained during that time to my advantage.

Alright man ! that's the spirit :) .. keep going "gladiator" :D

[HalfPint]

Even though tomorrow is my 3 month mark, today marks 90 days . . . w00t . . . big scream! I'm so excited, even though, as foolish and I talked about, the Honeymoon period is over, its still getting me high to hit 90 days, and to hit 3 months tomorrow (at 10:33). I'll try to get on at 10:20ish and post in celebration. I purchased my gift for myself today, I bought 2 new cd's. For those that are versed in Christian music, I bought tobymac's "portable sounds" and relient k's "5 score and seven years ago". I'm so excited, 3 months tomorrow. Its been a wonderful 3 months. Thanks to all the help offered to me thus far, its been a huge help and a huge encouragement.

[castaway16]

WOOOOW MAN !! ... Congratulations !!! maybe "Happy birthday" ? :D it's awesome to see you hit that record .. though i knew you would ..
you can't imagine how encouraging this is .. and btw, cool ticker ;) .. maybe I'll add one too ..

[hintongirl23]

I know how excited you were for this mark! Congratulations! Keep it up!

[HalfPint]

wow . . . thanks for your support guys. This has been an amazing 3 months, and its all because of people like you, and everyone else who have been encouraging me the entire way. This is definitely a mile marker in my book, and I'm happy to see it come.

*aahhemmm* I would like to thank my producers . . . lol j/k. I would like to thank the administrator(s) of this site. The people who produced it, the people who maintain it. Without you guys, these 3 months would be like any other. I would like to thank everyone who has participated with me in my journey. I would like to thank everyone who has encouraged me and congratulated me through my journey. Its encouraging, very encouraging to have the participation you guys have been giving me. At the same time the participation with you guys and your stories is encouraging as well. It makes me want to keep going to help lay down the path with foolish and the others on here, and I want to continue helping you guys out with your journeys. Whether your journey is a journey to help someone else, or whether your here for help yourself. It encourages me to encourage/help you. I look forward to another month of happiness, and hopefully I can celebrate some no-porn anniversaries with you guys.

*ps* tried getting on at 10 but was on the road coming home from college, so now I'm posting.

[HalfPint]

well . . . it looks like my post on here was affected by the data loss . . . oh well . . . this will be the third time typing this out lol (I just hit the wrong button and lost all my stuff I typed lol . . . doh.

Anyways, today starts my 97th day (seeing as its almost 1 in the morning). Just thought I would post this, seeing as my post that got erased was one stating that I made it to 95 days. Meh . . . oh well . . . its all good.

[FoolishMind]

HP.... This was your first post....

First Timer - 12-28-2007, 01:33 AM
Hello everyone. First off I wanted to let you all know, this is the first time that I've joined a community to try to solve my problem of addiction. I am 20 years old, and have been looking at for about 8 years now. I have been able to stop now and then for some times a few days, some times a week, and there was one time I stopped for 3 months. I'm tired of looking at , every time I get online and st art thinking about women I feel I need to go to some sites and fulfill my desire. I just thought that maybe I could join a community where other people have gone through the same thing that I am going through and maybe help me get out of this rut I'm in.

Just take a moment and look how far you've come! When i first joined this site, your posts always made me smile. I was taken aback by how enthusiastic you were, how excited you were. I kept telling myself, I wish I could be like that, I really wanted to start this journey and feel the way you felt. You kept posting and telling everyone with so much excitement how you are starting to love life so much more, and learning all the time about how you used to be with P.

You truly inspired me, and I am proud to say I have followed in your footsteps, and do feel excited and do feel proud.

I can confidently say on behalf of everyone here you are a great person, with a great heart. And just as you have made a huge positive change in your life, every little post of advice you give, makes a huge impact in helping many others. (the two muffing joke...well thats debatable!)

Well done HP. You da MAN!

[HalfPint]

I cant say how much I appreciate that post foolish, that really means a lot to me. I remember back then, I remember how desperate I felt, how depressed I felt, how out of control I felt. Now, its like the complete opposite, I feel like I'm in control of my life, I'm holding the reigns and I can decide where I want and don't want to go.

I guess part of my optimism came from the fact that growing up, I always, ALWAYS was depressed. I would always get depressed over something small even. Since gaining control of my life and by overcoming porn I have slowly but surely come out of depression. I don't get depressed anymore and I am a truly different person. I really have all of you guys, you especially foolish, to thank for it. I came in and everyone just kept encouraging me to stay strong, and then the people who started after me I wanted to make sure I stayed strong so that I could better help them get better. Is been a goal of mine for a long time to be an anti-porn advocate. I can design stuff in photoshop and have some friends that are really good with it to, and I've wanted to create a series of posters, advertisements, and maybe even shirts about being modest and about being anti-porn. I don't know where to start, but I would definitely like to create my own "club" so to speak of people working together to help people with sex and porn addictions and to advertise in the real world, not just the e-world. This forum has been a huge help to me and I would like to try to help as many people as I can, just like this forum has helped me.

When admin asked me to be a moderator it made me feel like I can help more people and it just encouraged me to keep strong as well. It made me feel like a bigger part of "the cure" for those who need help overcoming this. Anyways, foolish, your a huge encouragement to me as well. I appreciate you following my story, I appreciate all your feedback and encouragements, its helped a lot.

[HalfPint]

w00t w00t w00t w00t w00t w00t w00t . . . thats how I feel today :D. besides being a little bit tired, I'm ecstatic . . . w00t. 100 days baby, today marks the 100th day (of course its not 100% official until 10:33pm eastern time but heck, on our birthdays we don't wait till the time we're born to celebrate)

I'm happy, I'm very very happy. I want to thank everyone thats been an encouragement so far, you guys rock my world. Honestly, the saying goes "a friend is worth his weight in gold" I think I'm going to change that for my situation. You guys are worth MORE than platinum (which as some of you may know, is more expensive than gold)