My Struggle - HalfPint

[HalfPint]

Okay, so sorry for falling off the face of the earth! life gets busy right? Well, good news and mediocre news, I have masturbated once, but that was like a month ago, and I still haven't looked at porn! I'm not going to keep a counter of my "clean days" anymore, not because I'm depressed or pissed or anything, but part of what made me almost continue to stumble last time was "dangit, I lost x amount of days" and I can't think of losing x amount of days, need to just stop and say, well hey, I've gone this long and only done it once or twice, so I no longer care about consecutive days!

So, I haven't looked at porn in just over 6 months though (yay half a year) (since october 4th if anyone cares to look at just how many days) and I've only masturbated 3 times in that duration! So I'm making good progress still (with Gods strength of course). Again, sorry for falling off teh face of the earth ;)

p.s. just noticed my journal is featured . . . w00t thats awesome, makes my day! love the graphic design how it looks like a cow :P

[HalfPint]

Well, again, tis been a long time has it not? Just wanted to come on and let everyone know, yes, I do exist, and yes, I am still clean! ;). have to figure out how long, too tired to right now, but hey, clean . . . yay me!! hang in there everyone!

*edit
eh, what the heck. I went to time and date and calculated it :P
223 days (7 months, 11 days) completely free of porn! and yes, even though I reported last time I masturbated while in florida, haven't done that since either, not going to calculate that one, don't care :P, I'm staying strong against it, and it didn't get me down, and I'm not technically keeping track anymore (constantly) of how long. so hey . . . . night all!

[HalfPint]

just thought I'd post again! I'm still clean!!! :D

[HopefulsRock]

Hey HalfPint............ That's good news and always nice to here! You should join in with Phil's "100 days goal" and keep the positive string going.

Nice work...

[HalfPint]

I know its been a while, sorry for going poof. Just though I'd post and let everyone know that I'm still 100% clean :)

[HopefulsRock]

Poof!!!... 100% clean doesn't just happen! Very nice to hear!

Keeping track isn't important as long as your minds made up and your getting results like this!

[HalfPint]

hey all, wanted to come by and make a post. Was hoping some people were in the chat, but alas nobody was active. Been kinda depressed today and need some friends I guess. I still haven't looked at porn, but things went south really quickly and in a really bad way with the girlfriend, I don't wanna type everything out at this point, but she's kinda gone off and is making her own choices out of insecurities, and I'm not included in the choices she's making, and I'm taking it really hard. Still staying strong, started smoking again, quit again, started again, quit again, and purchased e-cigs to keep from the tar and other chemicals in the regular cigs, oh well......we'll see how life goes from here out.......tell yah....when it rains it poors.....I can tell everyone thats true from experience now!

[FoolishMind]

Sorry about the tough times HP, and sorry no one was around when you needed it. You know what as you become a stronger person mentally and morally, you will be tested even more, but thats a good thing! Because thats life, its about continuous growth, if you keep getting new problems, its a measure of success, because it shows your learning to deal with the past issues, that they are no longer an issue that you cant deal with.

Dont know if that makes sense, but thats how I think anyway.

Also you need to let me know about that e-cig thing, I was thinking about trying that, so let me know if its worth it will ya!

Keep on trucking
FM

[Daniel]

HP,I am sorry to hear about your GF, that is a real drag.You know that you've had some world-record breaking success in your journey, please do not let this major element of adversity kick the legs from under you. I know the lure of medicating is surely present, but you do not want the Extreme Low that will bring.Prayers going your way,Daniel

[AnxiouslyEngaged]

Hey HalfPint,

Figured I'd check in and see how you're doing. It's been a long, long time since I've been around, but I'm back and plan to stay, though I've yet to determine in what capacity, precisely.

It looks like you got some really good time under your belt before your last post. How are you doing now? You should know that I don't think I've ever had as much time clean as you had at the time of your last posting. It's really, really great that you've made so much progress. And no matter what has happened since, you are still so far ahead of where you were when we were both starting out.

Here's to hoping to hear from you soon.

AE