My Struggle - HalfPint

[ThisWontBeMe]

I just read FM's post from way back when, and now that he's offering a present and an even better post than before, I kinda am excited to see what he's got cooking.

Stay clean bro! I'm rootin for ya.

[HalfPint]

today went well. I fought thoughts that I shouldn't have, and I went to see a movie and it had a little nudity/sex in it, but it didn't reveal too much, so I don't think I'm going to reset the counter, because it wasn't something that made me lust. So, today, 1 day clean, doin good, tomorrow I'll do good to, I have a family reunion (yuck) to go to. So, I'll be busy all day.

[HalfPint]

yay . . . another day free of porn. I was at my grandparents 60th wedding anniversary today, it was a huge family get together, most family I've ever seen in one place. I got to meet people I didn't even know existed, got to show off my camera skills and I got pictures of all my aunts and uncles on my moms side of the family, which never happens because one lives in one state, 2 live in another and the rest of us live in a different one, we're all over the us map lol. It was great though, can't wait to get the film developed.

[castaway16]

Good for you HP .. I can honestly feel that your fun ,contagious spirit is back, full throttle! :)

Congratulations on your second day and on the huge steps you've taken forward.

Enjoy another day of victory buddy !

[HalfPint]

well, even though I posted earlier that today was successful I felt like posting again anyways. That was somewhat mid day, and now its night, actually its 12:44 in the morning but still, I thought I would post about how the day went.

Well, I woke up kinda early (at least for a Saturday) and got ready, got into proper clothing and we went down and set up stuff for my grand parents 60th anniversary. We got cake, we got tons of food and then the people started piling in. My 2 uncles from across the us came, my aunt from the other side of the us came and all of the family came. All in all there were probably about 60 or 70 people there and I got to meet probably 5 or 6 people that are relatives that I've never met before. It was nice, we had fun I took 3 rolls of film that I will get developed. We got home and sat around for a while, thats when I got on here and posted that the day went well, and then my dad and I had a small cook out. Just the 3 guys (I have a brother, so it was my dad, my bro, and myself) and we had some good food. After getting stuffed I helped clean up and put some stuff away and now I'm back here again. So, the day went well, very well. I stayed clean, I didn't have any bad thoughts, and I had a great time with family, despite all of the old person sloppy kisses.

Thank you castaway for the kind words, they truely do help out. I feel stronger right now for some reason, and I'm hoping to retain this feeling and, hopfully, enhance it in time to come.

I guess, I look back and I look at the time my grandpa has spent with grandma and I see they've been together for 60 years. thats an amazing achievement. 60 years of happy, loving marriage. Thats what I and yearning for. I want to find the one I will spend the rest of my life with, marry her, and live to be old people together, then we will be the ones to give the sloppy old person kisses lol. And trust me, my grand kids, when I have them, will get plenty, I got them from my grandparents, so its only right that I spread the joy lol. I want to give up porn because I want to have what my grandparents have, and thats a love for each other that nothing can break, it truely is amazing to see.

[dave42]

Beautiful, beautiful post, Half Pint. You are an inspiration to me when you are "clean" and a model of how to get back on the wagon when you've had a relapse. We are all so lucky to have your help. Stay strong! Those grandkids of yours need lots of sloppy kisses!

All the best,

Dave

[HalfPint]

Thank you for the kind words dave, they mean a lot to me.

Today, so far, is going great, I've had no problems, no images in my mind, thank God, and I feel strong still. I'm sure that today will end up just as good as yesterday and the day before, I just can't wait to be there ;)

[HalfPint]

day ended well. I had some small problems, I was wanting to go grab some catalogs out of the trash that I knew i could find some pictures in. I didn't though. I've been craving some masturbation but I'm fighting that down, all in all, the day ended well, I didn't look at porn or masturbate so Its a success. 3 days.

[HalfPint]

well, I masturbated this morning., which I used images in my mind to do so, so just to be safe, I'm resetting the counter, not a big deal, 3 > 1 ;) I'll keep it going.

[Vorlan]

Good work in keeping positive HP, I must agree with Dave that your post yesturday was beautiful. It was one of those really amazing images that you don't want to look at too hard or talk about too much in case they shatter...thank you for sharing it.

Thanks also for your support recently, I really apprieciate it. Especially since you are fighting so hard yourself at the moment.

Well I just wanted to say I wish you the best. You deserve to beat this and I am confident you will.

Best of luck to you,

Ben