My Struggle - HalfPint

[Sheemie]

Great to hear things are going better for you. I'm no expert, but I think its wise to avoid chiropractors. Seems like once people start going to one, they never stop. I can sympathize with the back trouble. When mine flairs up I can hardly move. Its great that you've been able to stay positive and focused through the pain. Hope tomorrow goes even better! :)

[castaway16]

I heard a very loud sound yesterday, like a rock hitting the ground or something, but I now know what was it, it was HP's foot slamming the ground in all the strength he got to deliver a loud message : "I'm back"! ..

yeah, like sheemie said, it's great to hear that you're doing good, you know why it's great ? because once you focus, you inspire all of us !! so, keep focussed, and good luck :)

[FoolishMind]

HP, Havent heard a WOOT WOOT from you in aaages! Come on man, give us a proper HP stylee post.

[HalfPint]

as soon as I make it 7 days in a row (and no its not that I'm focusing on the length of time, I just felt like saying that).

Yesterday went well, and today is going well, had no time to think about it or look at it so I succeeded, so at the end of today it will be 2 days of success.

[castaway16]

HP pardon me : .. w00t .. :P ,
I know what you're saying about the 7 days in a row. That's exactly how I felt after my first relapse. And it was just then that I realized the importance of "Take it one day at a time"; because as simple as this may sound, it's really what quitting is all about; Focusing all of your energy on the current day only.
You WILL make it HP ! you're powerful enough to make this relapse final one, ask anyone here and he will certainly agree!

[HalfPint]

Yea, I know I'll make it, I just have to get there to be happier I guess. I'm trying to take it one day at a time. I did masturbate and conjure some images in my mind I shouldn't have this morning, so the clock gets reset, but the rest of the day went well, so I'm happy. My back is bothering me quite a bit still so thats a set off, but hey, this is life. Just gotta keep truckin.

[FoolishMind]

Do you remember this post: My Struggle - HalfPint

I cant wait to get the P free army marching out again! Just give me the signal, and i will start a whole new parade ;)

[HalfPint]

Yes, I do remember that post, it made me lol when I read it, and trust me, thats to come again. I'm trying. With the depression I was having for a while and these back issues, the stress levels have been higher and its been hard to focus, and that allows my mind to wander. I'm trying man, I'm trying. You'll hear a woot woot soon, trust me.

[FoolishMind]

Ive got a present for you, but im only giving it to you if you show me a month clean, a woot woot and allow me to do a crazy post on your journal. Only then you will get your pressie.

Deal?

[HalfPint]

lol sure, deal. I'm trying man, honestly, I am. I just need to focus more like I was before and be more passionate about it. Right now my attitude about everything is one of "meh". another words I just don't have the energy or the want to start something, to maintain something or to finish something up. I'm not starting any programming projects right now, I'm not finishing the one's I have and I'm not updating others I've finished. I just don't have the attitude for that right now, and honestly, I don't know why, but I'm trying to work on that.