Today, my girlfriend is out of town, and I ended up looking at P. I kind of went on a binge, and I am full of regret.
I regret doing this, and feel depressed afterwards. After p and mb, I feel tired and sad, mostly about the things that I am looking at. Then, minutes later I feel almost possessed to look at these things again until a lot of time has gone by, and I have nothing to show for it.
I find that I start out with youtube videos, and from there, it just gets worse, and it is just so easy to find this stuff these days.
I wish I could throw out the computer, but the truth is I need it for many different reasons, and it is part of my job. Do you guys have any suggestions?
The pleasure that I get from this is so small and fleeting, and after it is all over I wish I could never do it again. But now that I have slipped, I know it will be that much harder to fight off the temptation next time.
Tomorrow will be day one of freedom, and I will start again...
Hello Light,
Welcome aboard, this is quite a common scenario that you are in. Almost all of us who have need to use computer at job/home where we spend around 8-9 hrs per day, it is quite a general thing that we would visit some P site. I would say that this could be due to pressure that you face in the job and you need to vent it out. But as a matter of fact, this does tend to get serious when you start visiting these sites, often. So my suggestion to you would be to find an alternative activity you could do blog postings or even play some games or do some research or it could be something that you could do offline.
The good thing is that you realize that by watching P and mb ing you would be affected by it, so once you think of quitting, you will find hundreds of ways, you just need to be strong and stand up to the challenge.
I just went throught the same thing you went through. I did it on Thursday. I felt terrible but you know what we all make mistakes and during this recovery process we will slip up but we will notice that it will get harder and harder to do and that is a sign of success. Just know that you are not the only one. We are all in this together. Thanks so much for sharing because now I don't feel alone. Have a great weekend.
Thanks sliversurfer and helpme4life...I really appreciate the encouragement. Well, almost a week has gone by and I feel great, every day is better than the last. Next time I get tempted I will come here first.
I hope you guys have a great weekend, time to log off the computer and interact with the real world
“You must be the change you wish to see in the world.” - Mahatma Gandhi
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