Been on the Road Again for About a Week

[atrus912]

I was good for almost four days, and I was feeling great about it, and then I gave into porn twice today.

I need help. What do I do? Where do I start again. I might have heard some of it, maybe even most of it before, but tell me anyway.

[Vorlan]

Welcome to the site Atrus,

I think the most important thing to remember when you relapse is despite all the guilt and anger you feel at failing you are not back to square one. Think of it as walking down a path. When you go P free you start walking down a path which will lead you to becoming totally free of P. If you walk for four days in the right direction but return to P for half an hour. You aren't back to the start. You just have to get back on the path and pick up from where you left off. Don't think about failing think about the four days you were clean for. Use that slip as an oppurtunity to learn more about your triggers and plan how you will avoid that trigger next time. Victory against P takes time and effort but you can do it!

Get back on your feet and start walking again. Try to keep positive and take things one day at a time. I'd suggest starting a journal to try to organise your thought. You can and you will beat this.

The best of luck to you,

Ben

[showmelove]

I so much agree with what Vorlan said about slipping up . I have gone without p several times. Sometimes I go three weeks, sometimes only one. Once I did seven weeks. Everytime I try means that I'm removing p from my life and start to pick up new activites and interests. If you try often enough you will change things in your life and the struggle will turn in to a choice that you want for yourself. Good luck and stay positive!