Advice on how to stop relapses after wetdream fantasy :/

[Want2BeFree]

The PMO thing is having such a powerful effect on my life. I have horrible social anxiety at the age of 23, and have been PMOing since I was 13. Whenever I can go 2-3 weeks my depression lifts and so does my social anxiety! Unfortunately (and this has happened twice now) I relapsed today after TWO wet-dreams last night.

I guess I have a major dopamine overstimulate problem, because after a wet dream I feel like total shit the next day. Today, I woke up and was in a major brain fog and felt super fatigued. All I wanted to do was play video games and eat junk food, which led to the dark side.

I feel horrible right now, as I just wasted 22 days of PMO free. I had a goal to be 30 days clean by the time school opened in the spring, but now the best I'll be able to do is 2 weeks (which gives little results). What do I do about these wetdreams? They make me feel like I relapsed every time *brick wall*.

[Want2BeFree]

Ok WTF.

I. CANT. STOP.

Good news? I'm now 100% convinced about the power of all of this. Yesterday I felt godlike ambition for the world. Hell, yesterday I worked out, ran 4 miles, applied for jobs, and even started writing a novel. Today? I feel so depressed I don't want to walk out of my room, much less of my house. I go to talk to my roommate and my voice is all squeaky like some pre-puberty shit. I try to work out at home and last about 5 minutes. The only that is relieving this anxiety is more porn. FML.


Back to day one.

WTF.

[ski218]

Hi- sorry you are struggling after the dreams. I also have had relapses after a dream and I remember that funk after the dream that led to me giving in. Something i suggest is making a plan for all hours of the day with spending most of them outside your house. The more busy your brain is, the less chance there is to remind in a rut focused on your dreams. Maybe the next wet dream you have, get up in the morning, take a shower, and get out of the house- see a movie, go on a long walk, but just get out ASAP to try and clear your mind. I hope things pick back up for you, when you get one day under your belt again, the days start getting easier.