The Journey Continues

[BestShot]

Hi Everyone,

It has been a while since I have posted anything so I thought I would do just that. My recovery continues to go well. No "P" or "M" for months now. I credit most of my success to having an AP. We write to each other just about every day. Sometimes just to say hello and other times because we are struggling. This accountability partner has been a great source of "defense" against urges etc. because I don't want to let him down. I would hate to have to tell him that I slipped up today! Of course, if either of us slips it's ok. We don't judge each other but it really is nice to have that person in your corner.

So, as I have said, no slips for a long time. I recently read a journal here that spoke of "not looking at women" the wrong way. I have to say that at this point in my journey that is the next challenge. I don't really get "P" or "M" urges anymore but dealing with the real world (women I see each day) is more of a challenge. The more I read here at TTF the more I realize that this is the next step in recovery. So, I will deal with it just as I did the "P" and "M". One day at a time, one moment at a time. Eventually, I imagine that this too will become less of a problem.

Finally, I do realize that I will probably have to deal with all of these issues forever. It seems that if you let your guard down for too long you are most certainly setting yourself up for a fall. With that in mind I march on!

Thanks to everybody here at TTF for posting and communicating. So many of us depend on having this place to come to.

Stay strong my brothers and sisters!

Yours in the battle to heal,

BestShot