Does a partial slip place you back at day one?

[Want2BeFree]

I had reached day 10 of no PMO yesterday. I was gaining some strong benefits; such as lack of social anxiety along with feeling more myself, more alive. I had a few beers with some friends last night (which is a known trigger for me) and afterwards I went back to my apartment. I fell into P+M for like 10 minutes before I forced my self back on track .

Today I felt like total shit. In class we separated into group discussions and I was a nervous fit. As of right now I feel depressed like the day after a full PMO episode. I'm hoping that I'm just experiencing one of the initial "down" days induced by the reboot process, but I fear that those few minutes and videos last night may have placed me back into the dumps and I should consider my self back at day one?

I don't place a large amount of weight on what "day" I'm on, but I'd like to know the effects of a minor slip. If some one trying to recover slips and fantasizes + M, or views any porn does it sabotage the recovery process?

[2frustrated]

Yep, day one.

[IN NEED OF HELP]

I don't place a large amount of weight on what "day" I'm on, but I'd like to know the effects of a minor slip. If some one trying to recover slips and fantasizes + M, or views any porn does it sabotage the recovery process?

A good question.
The answer is yes. we need to remember, that right now in our lives, we are trying to over come the effects of this addiction. there fore, we can not in any way, look at anything, that can destroy our recovery. what we need to do, after a slip, is for one thing, we cant get down on ourselves. if we do, it can get us depressed, and we all know what a depressed state does, to us addicts.

You had 10 days of freedom from this crap is a good step in just starting your recovery. so what does this mean? well you are now back to day one, but that is nothing to feel bad about. look at what you done, as a learning experience. we need to find out what happened, to make us give into this addiction. you said you had a few beers, and that is a know trigger, so you already know this time, in why you had this slip. if this recovery is important to you, and i know it is, because you are here getting help, maybe something has to be done about the drinking right now, so it does not interfere with your recovery.

I have a issue with drinking that I am working hard on to get rid of. in the early part of my recovery, when things were not going good for me here at home, I would just drink. but I wont lie, there were times, that just because i felt i had to drink, i fought like hell to remain free from this addiction. drinking can destroy my P recovery in a heart beat, if I am not careful. i do have a few beers once in a while still, but if am in anyway in a bad mood, i will stay away from it, because i know, it will allow me to act out.

So you are back to day one, so get pass this day, and lets see you hit day 2 again, and then day 3, and so on. You may want to start a journal here if you haven't done so, so we can help you. there is just no way, any of us can do this on our own. in your journal, if you let us know what you are going through, then we can help you.

Just stay strong in your recovery, and fight like hell, to get rid of this problem. I am a little over 9 months free from this crap, and I have never felt better in my life. and I have over 40 years of this addiction in my life.

Stay strong, and always be on guard. you can and will do this

Gerald