Vent.

[ReadytoQuit]

I have posted here before, and as always, have been reluctant to post here because of my failures, but right now, I just don't know where to turn. This addiction has plagued me for such a long time, and recently I felt that a change could be possible. I still somewhat feel it, the past couple days have been a struggle. I feel like I can get a grip on things, but seeing as I haven't been able to do a week in a very long time, it's frightening. I just can't live like this any longer though, and I've come to realize how much I hate my life. Little things in life hardly bring joy anymore. I just feel so lost in the amidst of this addiction. I'm young and wondering why I am even alive, what is my purpose? I contribute little to nothing to the people in my life. I feel like such a burden. I always felt like I had something to offer, but recently have realized that fantasy world vs. reality. In reality I am nothing that I want to be. For the most part this post is just me venting, it's all I feel I can do right now.

[jaceinla]

I've felt like you buddy, it's our fun co-enemy the brain...mainly the brain on an addiction. I've never felt happier than when I'm off porn, and then again, while I've been on it, my addiction has never been happier.

Don't play around with these thoughts of lack of self worth. You are a miracle in this world and fully worthy of everyone's love and joy. I'm pretty sure you have a lot to offer to others just being yourself.

This addiction though, can bend the mind, warp our thoughts, and destroy the most wonderful people. Of course it's very discouraging at times, but you have to see through that. Yes you may have not been able to make it a week, but why? Why haven't you? Are you lacking motivation? Discipline?

Kind of the double edged sword there huh? The best way to get all those great things is to clear all that fog out of the mind...which means the only way to get there, is through sheer faith and determination KNOWING (and this is a fact) that there is a much better place on the other side of the mountain. You already know it. You know where happiness is, you just have to tell yourself that you can do it...and you already know you can.

Rid yourself of the doubt and know you have the capabilities to accomplish anything....

THIS ADDICTION WILL BE THE HARDEST THING YOU WILL EVER HAVE TO FACE IN YOUR LIFE...so don't be discouraged if you're having trouble. Stay strong and keep going, and we'll all see you on the other side of the hill soon enough