The S.O.S. Thread

[Yechezkel]

yechezkel,
PLEASE don't feel embaressed about asking for HELP... especailly HERE.... This addiction and it's struggles it what brings us all here... PA's and SO's alike.... We are ALL here to GET HELP...
I think it is HUGE that you ask.... that you come HERE instead of P....
PLEASE give yourself CREDIT.... not be EMBARESSED....
1.You come here 2.admit you are struggling 3.you don't let the EGO win 4. you ask for HELP....
You are doing exactly what an ADDICT is supposed to be doing in order to FIGHT .....
I am an SO..... and I am listening, offering you support... This is where you should be.....
Betrayedfamily

Thank you very much Betrayedfamily.....



I am really having a hard time right now, I am just ready to give up, i am so tired of being hurt and just wanna act out right now to feel better, just say F-it why not, it will help me sleep, make me feel better, (sobbing) I just cant take it anymore, I know I should focus on the good but all it takes is one really bad experience to ruin someones peace and screw up their entire day.

I cant sleep, supposed to be up in 4 hrs for work and I am a mental wreck now all because of someone who has decided they dont like me and want to target me.

I really am at the end of my rope with this person and now I might even loose a customer because of her, I dont know how I will function at work tomorrow, I wont be able to sleep at all tonight now.

[IN NEED OF HELP]

I never thought I would write in this thread. as I explained in my journal, my world came crushing down on me this morning.

I have never struggled as bad as I am right now, to remain clean from this addiction. I feel like a failure, just by writing here, and saying I am struggling. I should have better control than this, after all of this time I have been clean

[JenMac]

I never thought I would write in this thread. as I explained in my journal, my world came crushing down on me this morning.

I have never struggled as bad as I am right now, to remain clean from this addiction. I feel like a failure, just by writing here, and saying I am struggling. I should have better control than this, after all of this time I have been clean

Hearing you Gerald! I know this is a very hard time but I know you can do this! You are building a strength that you never imagined you could have! Be strong!
Jenn

[maggie]

INOH,

Things are very bad for you right now. You are dealing with her anger and her lack of trust in you and what you say.

When I read your journal, as bad as I felt for you, I could still see myself reacting that same way if some female I didn't know had called his cellphone. It would be impossible for me to believe that he was innocent. But reading your words, I can see that you are. Your upsetting experience has now warned me that something may occur that makes him look very guilty when he is actually innocent. Never thought about this before.

I don't know what to say to you except that I've read many of your posts and saw how much you were moving forward in your life. You have reached out to so many men here giving them support and advice in this battle. Please don't give up.

maggie

[Hibiscus]

I'm so sorry you're struggling and that you're in crisis. This must feel much like the beginning of your recovery when your just beginning to learn how to fight the urges. But it IS different this time Gerald, because YOU are different! You've grown so much, learned a lot about yourself, have helped many others on this board with your unwavering support, and have made these changes because you want to be the man you were meant to be before PA took hold.

You have the tools and support to get through this very rough time. Grab hold of them! People on this board and in your SAA group will rally around you. Remind yourself how proud you have been of your progress and how amazing you will feel when you look back and see how you survived this as well.

Don't give in for momentary relief - you have enough recovery knowlege to know you will feel so much worse afterwards, not to mention the frustration of starting over at day 1. Fight your way through this for the longer term reward of recovery and feeling proud of yourself. You can do this Gerald!

[IN NEED OF HELP]

It is so wonderful, to receive this much encouragement from all of you. I am doing what I can right now, to not give in.

I am glad, that even though I feel so low, in allowing myself, to write here, knowing that all of you, may not feel I am strong as I am in my recovery. I am glad I did it, because, I do see the true love and support, that ALL of us get here at TTF.

I will explain more later, but right now, I can not see the keyboard, because, I am here crying like a baby.

As we were fighting her 16 year old daughter, came in, and intervened in our fight. she told her mom, that she feels, that I am telling the truth this time, that maybe, she should listen to me, before she makes a rash decision on this.

All I know, I am scared to lose the one woman, I love so dearly.

thank you again, for all of this support. Yes I am still clean

[HopefulsRock]

Gerald I know arguments still pop up in relationships and sometimes they come in from left field unwarranted but try not to push her too much as I think she's going to need some time for this one... and for what it's worth, I do believe every word in your journal and everywhere else you post!

Don't forget that the trust she had for you has been shattered and it doesn't go back together as quickly as it came apart! ...on a good note... it's nice to hear that you have the trust of her daughter.

I need your strength here Gerald, so do you and so does she so do not let this crap knock you down!

PS. I'm heading to your journal for more...............