Thank you all for everything you're writing. When I don't read these threads and just think about reading them, it seems like a sad waste of time. Yet, when I read what you all share, it's like you're saying everything I would say if I just opened up my mouth to say it. I can't believe I've been battling this for nearly 15 years. I can't believe it. That's more than 1/2 my age.
My biggest pitfall is reasoning - "oh it's just once, and i've gone so long without it, i deserve a treat. Just once...." Or the other side - "I've been so stressed, taking care of so much so responsibly, my body needs this now." My reasoning sure sounds like a martyr, doesn't it?
Goodnight.
p.s. I'm not up as late as it says I'm sending these posts - is this site based in England?
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04-06-2008, 03:50 AM
I feel lost in darkness with no way out. I feel like I have been given over to this monster who counsumes me. When I lay down at night I sometimes feel tormented with the images. my life is going down hill.I go before God only to smack him in the face time and time again. I came to the site just after going threw the cycle. I want to have hope, I wanted to sexaul pure and to experince the gift in the right context. I am here to talk with some who can help encourge me.
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I feel lost in darkness with no way out. I feel like I have been given over to this monster who counsumes me. When I lay down at night I sometimes feel tormented with the images. my life is going down hill.I go before God only to smack him in the face time and time again. I came to the site just after going threw the cycle. I want to have hope, I wanted to sexaul pure and to experince the gift in the right context. I am here to talk with some who can help encourge me.
Where there is hope, there is help.
Are you male or female? About what age are you and yes, tell me about your education or some other details of who you are.
Larry
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Larry I am a male 29 years old. I live with my dad. I have pt job. I just came here for some help. I know there is hope. But I must say this porn monster is a beast.
Congrats Tom, you have taken an important step. I have to say, when I first quit p I felt like I did this big sacrifice to give up something I really enjoy and I bet that is a part of how you feel now as well. With time it feels more like gaining freedom and no sacrifice at all. But it has taken me a few tries and some time to feel that.
"If guys think that a girl who allows P into a relationship is the greatest gift to man, then girls think that a man who doesn't need P and is satisfied with her is the greatest gift to woman." - Jasmine
"Stop looking for romance, stop looking for sx, start looking at women, all women as potential friends" - Tipple Downs
Kingdom1
Check out the "how to get started guide to breaking porn addiction" on the home page of this web site. In addition to being active in this forum I think you need a plan for how to deal with this. The guide to getting started was a help to me and confirm what I've been told by the psychologist I've seen and what I've read on other forums.
Be optimistic that you have recognized this problem while you are relatively young. You may have to change your life in certain ways but getting of the PA will be well worth the changes. I wish you success in slaying this "monster" as you correctly referred to PA.
03-25-2008, 11:49 PM
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