-Laughing-

[Mefree]

Hahahaha...
Unbelievable...
At least I can get a good laugh at myself when I relapse. Jesus, it was such an auspicious looking day, too. Sweet lord, just 2 hours and 15 minutes away from that 7 day mark. The whole thing was so d@mn fast I barely feel like I relapsed at all.
Man I wasn't even in the mood. Where the hell did it come from?

9:51 pm- Central Time- 19th of November 2009.
Mark it: Day 1.

C'est La Vie. Brush myself off and learn from my mistakes I suppose. Guess I'll just go slam my head against a wall.

Be vigilant everyone. I would've bet a thousand bucks a relapse wouldn't have come my way today.
Good luck.

[tru2myself]

Sorry to hear about the relapse. Your ability to stay porn free seems similar to mine. When I'm off porn for a few days, I sometimes relapse without me actually having an urge.

What causes this you ask? Of course it may be different from addict to addict, but for me I think it comes from the feeling that I'm leaving something wonderful behind. Although you're not suffering from an urge at the time of relapse, you still keep how much pleasure and fun you've had with your addiction in mind. In other words, you don't want to give up your addiction because you make porn out to be this incredibly enjoyable part of your life that's not worth giving up. Once you sense you're making progress and porn will no longer be a part of life that mindset kicks in: Wait! You can't give up this beautiful hobby of yours. Look at how much pleasure it brings you.....

This mindset has caused me to relapse plenty of times. These days I stop and (literally) push into my mind: You know what.... I can't deny that it brings me great pleasure , but I also can't deny that its ruining so many other aspects of my well being. So I must give up this pleasurable experience to better the overall quality of my life.

[Crisodian]

Mefree,
Sorry to hear about the releapse. But you are correct, dust yourself off and start again. One day at a time. One hour if necessary.

Keep moving forward.

~C~