Near relapse

[Mefree]

Ugh. Had a near relapse last night. I looked at some pictures for five minutes then closed down. Sure, I'm glad I stopped, but ya know what they say, it's the thought that counts.

I've decided to fall to plan B- neuter myself.
The only urge I'll have to fight then is nibbling on my crotch stitches.

[Crisodian]

Yes, but you stopped. And that's a good thing!

One day at a time.

~C~

[hast]

Haha I like the idea of neutering yourself. I kind of doubt that will work, though, cause my cat still has urges from time to time...

I know what you mean about the thought thing. I feel somewhat guilty at the moment, and I haven't even done anything! It's just that I'm trying to convince myself to, and it makes you feel bad that you still want it and you're actually contemplating it.

BUT. You stopped! What's more, you stopped after looking at stuff, already! It's soo much harder to stop once you've started, so congrats! I applaud you on progressing to the point where you are able to stop yourself after already having seen some stuff.
Great job, keep up the good work! =D>

[tru2myself]

I applaud you in your ability to go to the brink and not give in. 90% of the time I give in if I begin to view any pornographic material. It's almost as if I think all hope is lost at this point.

Composure! Composure! Composure! It all begins with this!