On my way out!

[hast]

I really think I'm on my way out. I'm definitely recovering from this bout of the addiction, but now that I'm doing all the things I never had the courage to do before, like join this site and tell my best friend, I really feel like I could be done for good. I've never felt so free. I've never felt so hopeful that it will never return again. I'm on my way. I'm going to do it. Thank you God for giving me the strength to do this. Thank you TTF and all of the users, especially Crisodian, for being here for me. I really can do this. I don't even just think I can, anymore. I can. I will.

PS: this isn't a goodbye post to anything other than my addiction. I will still be here..probably for a long long time to come. Maybe years!

[Crisodian]

You're welcome hast. But you know what? As much as I appreciate the thanks (and I do) :D, you are the one who is making the changes to improve your life. YOU. And that, above everything else, is the most important thing. You're doing this for you. Make sure you thank yourself as well. :)

You're on the right path. You've not only found support here, but you've been able to open up and share your struggles with someone close. That's excellent. On top of that, you're identifying your triggers and putting plans in place to handle them. That's commitment.

My only words of advice to you at this point is enjoy the "high" you are experiencing from being free and strong. Remember that feeling when the struggles raise their ugly head. Because, inevitably, they will. And... you know what? That's ok.

You do have the strength to do this. It may be easy, it may not be. But you are finding a path forward through everything. And that, my friend, is a good place to be.

Be strong.
~C~

[hast]

Thanks, C! You're right, I didn't even think to thank myself! So thank you, me, for taking the initiative to dig your/myself out of this pit! lol that was weird hahaha

Yes, I know the temptations will come. You know, in a way, I'm glad for all the relapses I've had...not so much for the relapse, but for the experience of overcoming the relapse time and time again. Now I know full well exactly what to expect, and I can be prepared for it.

I know that this will be hard...this has already been the hardest fall to pick myself back up from, so far, but I'm also kind of glad for that. Because, while it's the hardest to recover from...it's been the quickest and most successful. I'm not done yet, I know that, but so far, I have overcome obstacles that I just side-stepped all the other times I quit. I think that because I'm still fighting so hard against this, the most difficult of all of the climbs, it means that I have aquired strength I couldn't have imagined, before. And I have so much more will power and self control, these days.

Today was wonderful. It's amazing how much you change when you are in and when you are out of the snare.

[Crisodian]

LOL hast. You're a trip.

Thank yourself by doing something nice for yourself. Silly :P

You are making great progress. It is already evident in what you have shared. IMO, you've already conquered some of the foothills and are already on your way up the mountain. Keep climbing and reaching for the sky!

Keep going forward ...and UP!

~C~