semi-relapse

[hast]

You know, I almost had a relapse today. Well I semi-relapsed. Almost a week since my sobriety date, and my body was having urges to go back to where I was a week ago.

I did give in to a little MB...but I managed to stop myself from going full out MB like usual, and there was no way I was gonna let myself get to the P like I wanted to.

At first I was beating myself up about it, thinking how terrible it was that I couldn't even make it a week without going back, but then I decided to change my attitude. Yes, i did MB a little. Yes, I was planning on going full out and restarting my sobriety date tomorrow. BUT I DIDN'T. Then the song "One Step at a Time" by Jordin Sparks came to mind.

Seriously, how often has that happened?? How often have I been able to stop myself once I started? NEVER. I've NEVER stopped after I started...I always reason that I might as well since I already started. So you know what?

YAY ME! I'm making great progress. \:D/

[Crisodian]

hast,
Don't beat yourself up over a relapse. It happens. You've already learned from it and are moving forward again. Good for you! Small victories are as important as big ones.

Take things one step at a time. You can do this. Keep moving forward.

~C~

[newstartforher]

I would say that stopping once you've started is a great victory. Well done :D

[Athenon]

Stoping in the middle of the relapse zone is quite a feat. Of course we have to try to break the urge before we get too far but you managed to save the day at the height of the buildup. I don't think I ever been able to even think about stopping at that point. It shows how strong is your determination to be free.

So I agree with you, YAY you !

;)

[hast]

Thanks so much :)
Somehow your congratulations help me be even more determined to end it all. Thank you :)