5 days and going..

[Tattooedup32]

I decided to give up Pornagraphic Material as of last Thursday. I made the decision because it was affecting my love life with my wife. I think she knew I had a problem with porn on the internet but it was never discussed. It came to the point that I would rather look at material online rather than enjoy the physical touch of my wife. I am too young to have something like this put such a tole on my life. Since the day that I decided to make the change I have felt free, my wife and I had a wonderful weekend and It feels like a huge weight has been lifted off of my shoulders. I hope and pray that everyone on here can feel what I am feeling and open up in order to break the horible cycle of PM online. God bless and good luck everyone.
I will continue to blog on here to keep everyone up to date on my progress.

[Tattooedup32]

So I am sitting here my wife is sleeping I am doing some school work and the desire to surf for porn started to come over me. So here I am instead. I haven't had the desire for the last 5 days but boom there it was, so instead of giving into my temptation I came here to vent that frustration. I will not give into this demon, I will not let let the devil own me anymore. I am a free man and I rejoice. Well with that said I feel better already. Going on day 6. o:-)

[Charly22]

I think it is awesome that you are able to observe the negative effects it is having on your intimacy with your wife. Nothing will ever compare to the true love and closeness that comes from a completely unhindered relationship. And porn WILL most definitely hinder these things. Kudos to you!!!

With that said....I hope you can stay vigilant...focused....don't forget your mission....don't forget the freedom that this has brought you....while there will be many more moments of temptation...so much more than that waits for you!!!!! God bless YOU !!!!

[Tattooedup32]

Thanks for the encouragement. I think one of the biggest problems with trying to fight porn addiction is that there are very few support groups available. It doesn't seem like society looks at porn as an addictive substance so there are few places to go to fight the addiction. It's not like a drug addiction where you can talk to people and get help. Porn is such a dirty thing the fear of what friends and family will think keep people from speaking out. I felt alone in my addiction until I found this website. Thank you again for your support, it helps knowing people are there to talk to.
o:-)

[Daniel]

Tatooedup32,

Welcome to TTF! It was very encouraging to read your posts, to hear of your determination to beat it rather than it beat you when you had that urge. Nice work!

I suggest that you begin your own Journal in the Recovery Journals section. That way we can get to know you and your journey better, comment, shoot ideas back and forth, etc.

Continue on the path!,

Daniel

[johndonato]

Tatooedup32, Hi just me chiming in with my opinion, I read your last posts and you were saying how there are not alot of places to go or to get help with your Pa addiction. Porn is just a manifestation of acting out that is directly related to a sexual issue. So any S addiction material is gonna help you with the PA. in my opinion...JD