I got so uncomfortable

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I'm a helpless victim of pornographic content available on the internet. I've been trying to give it up. I have to. But today, I just couldn't stop it. It is like the palov's dog experiment.

Pavlov's Dog

In that experiment, you let the dog hear a ring of a bell each time you feed it. You can make their saliva dribble without food, by letting it hear the bell ring. This addiction also works like that.

I can't stop it my friends. Something always stimulates my sexual desires. Today, I saw a girl on TV, who was dressed very pretty and then it went off. Last night, I saw a girl on a motorbike with her boy friend and it went off. But last night I was able to prevent myself from viewing internet porn, but today I just couldn't stop myself.

I visited the website, and searched for a specific video which I like, and watched it. Halfway through my girl friend called me, and I feel so horrible for watching it. That stopped me from continuing to view it.

I should be feeling horrible. It is prohibited in my religion as well. My girl friend knows that I have this addiction, and she told me that if I tell her that I viewed porn again she would break up.

Do you know why I couldn't prevent myself from viewing porn today? Because there was this absence. I have to say that I needed it... I felt sick without it. It is an absence in my chest and in my guts. Please help me. I haven't masturbated yet. But I need to, and I'm trying to control it.

It goes off whenever I'm alone, or whenever I see my PC or my laptop as well. Please help me.

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My religion suggests that I can overcome sinning by fasting. Fasting is the process of staying without food from dawn to dusk. That would be from about 4 am to about 6.10 pm. You get to eat after about 6.10 pm. I heard that our prophet fasted every two days. I'm willing to try this. But my parents won't allow it. My dad knows about the addiction. He believes that if I exercised, it would be better.

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Your dad is probably right...exercising more does clear your mind. I've recently started doing more regular exercise, and I feel happier and more alert.

When that feeling of "incompleteness" (as I call it) or "absence", as you call it comes up, you just have to tough it out. It will come to a peak, and then decline. It can feel quite horrible, as you know, but it does pass. I saw something useful about how to do this online and I posted a thread about it here:

Technique for overcoming craving - "urge surfing"