What are the different levels of addiction?

[hannah]

Hi Jen,
Thanks for that very enlightening post. I have been coping pretty well until the last couple of days, I don't think I actually appreciated what I've gone through, I went into the mode of helping my partners and supporting him immediately.
I fo feel very fearful at the moment, we go back to work on Tuesday, I don't know how the reality of being back in the routine will affect us, especially with my operation looming.
I miss my best friend who is far away. I can't talk to any of my friends about this.
x

[JenMac]

Hey Hannah!
I think most of us are the same way, we can't/don't want to talk to our friends and family about this. I learned the hard way a while ago that I do not want to share some of my struggles with those closest to me. I don't want their judgement, advice and the fact that they can't let go of things long after I might want to, made me feel like I could not share this with them.
You are in a good place to find many you can share with Hannah and who will support you as you go along. We have been through the same things and so we know what you are experiencing. That is perhaps the most important thing.
Getting back into routine can indeed be scary, but sometimes it is good for us too! I hope that is the case for you!
Come here often Hannah! We have a wonderful group of supportive, friendly, inspiring SOs to assist you in YOUR recovery!
Hugs to you!
Jenn

[hannah]

I feel so exhausted. Last night I eventually told my boyfriend I was feeling low and fearful - this was difficult for him because the last few days have been good. I think he is starting to understand that I have been through a lot, even without the P discovery.
I cried a lot, look dreadful with puffy eyes now.