Im engaged! And Im terrified.

[Loving_FGL]

I just wanted to say thank you cyberpunk for all your thoughts and this particular quote most of all.

Will your relationship make you happier in 20 years or more angry, hurt and betrayed? If it is the latter than what is in the way? Once you have figured out the problem, in your case a PA of your SO, then you need to decide if you AND HE are going (not just willing) to take steps to overcome the problem. If you aren't BOTH willing to work on the problem then you should question remaining in the relationship.