Reintroduction

[helpmefreud]

Hello all,

I posted once in the "new member welcome area" around this same time last year, but fell away from the site. I've decided that I'm gonna get back on the bandwagon here. It's been a long year, and I've had some big ups and big downs, but I need to get back in the trenches and try my best to get P out of my life.

I'm 24 years old and have been watching P for about as long as I can remember. I have a girlfriend, who I love very much, and when I can get the money together, I'd like to propose to her. We've talked about tying the knot for some time, and I'm ready to go there and do that! But, as a part of that commitment, I want to keep doing my best to get P out of my life.

Since I know I'll get the question: Yes, my SO knows that I watch P, but is pretty blithe about it. She doesn't seem to care much and I've never cheated on her. I have no plans on doing so, either. However, the thoughts that bubble up in my mind scare me, and I want to make ten thousand percent sure that I will be true to her, now and always.

I REALLY WANT TO MAKE SOME FRIENDS HERE!!! Fellow PAs, SOs--anybody, really. I want to become a part of this community, and I want to lend my love and support to those who need it. PLEASE, SEND ME A PM OR REPLY TO MY POST! While P has gotten me down before, and I recognize that it has a strong hold on my mind and my past, I'm not giving up. I hope I can keep inspiring everybody else here to do the same.

-Help