New SO here!

[SOHope]

I'm so excited to have found this site!

A little about my story.
I starting see my b/f in Feb 09. About a year in I thought something was strange. Needless to say as time went on I found out that he viewed a great deal of p and later found out that he like to use the computer for more than just this.
This past year has been our roughest as I found out he had been unfaithful with women I will never be like.
He talked that talk 2-3 times about now acting out anymore and about recovery though this last time he has finally taken it seriously.
I love him and he is an amazing man aside from this cruel addiction that we are coping with. I only wish he could see him as I see him as a kind, wonderful and terrific man. I know inside he puts himself down and feels undeserving of love.

Like I mentioned in my one other post, the only thing I see as being a problem is his undecidedness as too whether he will become 're-attracted' and passionate about me and us again. I've known forever that he doesn't think about me while in the bedroom and while that hurt, I took what I could get! How awful is that?!

So like I posted before, anyone within insight on the gaining back attraction to me as opposed to his P images and unrealistic images of women...that would be wonderful. I really was hoping to get some PAs to respond to let me know how/when they gained their attraction back to their partner if any of you can spare some insight.

Thank you all!

[waterlily327]

Hi SOHope, I know I posted on one of your other threads, but I wanted to extend a welcome to TTF here! You have come to a safe, supportive community for your healing. As a fellow SO here, I have found much-needed support here. I hope you will too. Start a SO journal so we can track how you are doing in one place, and read a lot here. There are great, safe articles about p*** addiction, many heart-felt journals from SO’s and PA’s alike. Reading through the recovery journals really opened my eyes to what my fiancé was going through with his recovery. Good luck, SOHope, I am glad you found TTF!