I feel like a yoyo

[Dom]

My PA has been getting worse. Like so many of you I thought I had it under control for such a long time. It's when I began picking inappropriate times to satisfy my pa that I realized there is a REAL problem. I've been telling myself I can do it myself without anyone else's help for quite a while. As you can probably tell by my presence here that I have not had much success.

This is how it goes - I spend time at the computer satisfying my pa. Immediately afterward I feel the usual remorse and tell myself "that's the last time!". The next day I'm prompted by about anything. It can be a commercial or a hint of my wife's perfume and I'm back at it again. The whole time I'm surfing I have this internal dialog going, telling me what I promised myself only yesterday. I think about it feeling a little guilty, but continuing to look for the perfect image. I spend what seems like forever just going from site to site looking for what exactly I don't know. Once satisfied, I tell myself that it's not going to happen again, but tomorrow comes, I'm alone again and the breeze is just right...

I know I can kick this thing. When I was in high school I smoked pot like a chimney. One day I realized that it was causing more harm than good so I made the decision to quit. It was tough. I'm sure you all know what peer pressure was like in high school! I broke down a lot at first, but every time I got high it only reminded that I really didn't like it that much.

PA for me, has been harder than kicking the pot habit. Maybe it's because I at least had a few friends supporting that decision. With PA I have no one to confide in since, so far, no one else knows about my dirty little secret. Hopefully this forum will give me the support I need.

Dom

[Cupcakemomma]

Welcome to TTF Dom. This is a great place to find all kinds of support.

[2frustrated]

Well now you have a whole community of support! The secret to success here is to keep coming back to this site no matter what. Keep reading. Keep posting. Tell us your triumphs, your failures, and your struggles. Doing it on your own is not impossible, but the nature of a PA is to be secretive and independent. P will get you in the midst of your victory. It will drag you through the mud while you're down. The only safe place is out in the open--in the light of day where all the ugliness of p cannot be hidden.

[dstine1234]

Hey Dom, I feel for you, I am going through much the same thing. I go through the same cycle with the PA. i can't understand why I can't stop the cycle but it keeps going. Its really tough for me. Hang in there, I just joined this site and I am hoping it might really help me out. Take care.

[Dom]

Hey Dom, I feel for you, I am going through much the same thing. I go through the same cycle with the PA. i can't understand why I can't stop the cycle but it keeps going. Its really tough for me. Hang in there, I just joined this site and I am hoping it might really help me out. Take care.

Hey, dstine. I definitely know how you feel. I felt like there was no place to go before I found this forum. It was something I'd never even consider talking to anyone I know personally. This is a great place to talk about it anonymously with others that are going through the same thing.

Good luck and hang in there.
Dom